A Silhouette and Maybe More

So Long and Farewell

Dan had voluntarily cleaned my clothes for me leaving. One by one I put each individual piece of clothing onto my thin body with a grumpy attitude. I had one last cup of tea in the kitchen relishing the moment of peaceful silence and the companionship of Dan.
Once Dan had finished his tea, he left and stood by the car waiting on me to bring myself to leave which I eventually did after a mental farewell to the house. Dan's farewell was yet to come.
I walked out the door to see Dan leaning against the boot of the car, hands buried deep into his pockets and his head bowed, his hair majestically blowing in the wind, can he get any more attractive? I entered the car alongside him for the first time in weeks, it seemed so long ago that I had been dragged here against my will where the first steps of my journey had just been taken. We both sighed dreading this long travel back but it had to happen.
We set off, driving down the long narrow road that led to the main road - the way home. Nothing was said between us, I couldn't bare the thought of speaking right now, I just let my tears say it all for me. A quick glance from Dan was all that was needed to notice my saddened emotions, he placed his hand on top of mine trying to comfort me, but there was no way that there was any chance that I would be comfortable sitting in this very car. I sat, staring out the window watching fields upon fields of crops fly by me while we drove through the long, isolated road. With my hand perched upon my cheek, I stared into space. I felt different; physically and emotionally. My body seemed limp and lacked energy, I felt like my heart sunk with every beat, my mind was so unclear as my thoughts became obstacles that I struggled to ignore. I tried to remain optimistic about this; how I'll finally get to see my family again, but I knew that soon after my return things would be back to normal. Who knows? This might not even be the last time I will see Dan.
Before too long things became familiar again, the hills, the sea, the different turn-offs until finally my house was in sight. Dan pulled over outside where we first met and turned the ignition off, sitting patiently because he knew just as well as I did that we didn't want to leave each other.

What do I say to him?

"Well..." He sighed, looking at me in the eyes which was making things worse, those same eyes that I fell in love with.

"I guess this is goodbye." I smiled, but on the inside I was falling apart.

Who said goodbye's were easy?

"Thank you Amelia Grace." He whispered. "For everything." He leaned over and gently pressed his lips against mine as a reminder of what he'll miss. A kiss was all that I was left with as I exited the car leaving Dan behind. I forced myself to walk as my body refused to accept the fact that I was leaving him, I felt like I turned my back on him. I didn't want to look back, it was too hard, everything would come flooding back. I had to focus.

"Wait! Amelia!" His voice shouted out to me and instantly I turned round, looks like it wasn't just me who was having seconds thoughts. Slamming the car door he ran for his life in my direction, showing no sign of slowing down, and within a matter of second I was him arms again.

"I can't do this." He muttered from behind my shoulder.

"Neither can I, but I have to. We'll see each other again right?"

There was a sense of doubt and hesitation about him which made me insecure, we will keep in contact...won't we?

"Of course."

"Please...be safe."

Pulling apart was like trying to pull very powerful magnets apart; almost impossible. His hand slid down my back and towards my bum, snaking his hands into my back pocket where I felt something being released.

"Amelia?!" A voice behind me shouted, one I recognised as my mothers. I spun round to meet with my mums face once again, I wanted to run and hug her but I didn't want to leave him. He nodded towards my mum with a smirk on his face as if to say 'go, it's okay'. I cupped his cheek and left running towards my mum with open arms. I was surprised that with the amount of police around looking for him - and that my dad is head of the police - that she didn't recognise him.

"Mum." I whimpered engulfed her in a hug.

"Oh Amelia I've been so worried about you, are you alright?"

I was so tempted to say no, but I wouldn't want to worry her.

"Of course I am, I was just saying goodbye to my friend. I've missed you."

"I've missed you too darling. C'mon lets go home." She draped her arm around me and we began walking home together at last. I was so distracted with everything I barely noticed that Dan's car was no longer there, only to be seen miles away from where I was standing.

Goodbye, Dan.