[complete] the swan dive | the first diary - katsudeku

day one hundred and thirty three

Izuku felt waves of relief wash over him after his recent therapy session with his Therapist. He felt like his demons were cleansed and washed away with the flood. However, two of them still lingered in his body. Maybe, they were never meant to leave. They were meant to stay with Izuku for the rest of his life.

i can't help it, kacchan.
i can't help these tears.
these fake smiles and
this pile of fears.

i only have a few years left
until i meet my demise.
sometimes, i think about it positively...
i wont have to hear your cries.

uraraka, iida,
kirishima and you.
but you won't cry.
you never do.

this body is mine.
it is mine only.
stay away kacchan,
or you'll end up lonely.

kirishima rejected you, right?
haha. pathetic.
it means that you were never good enough.
you're like me, you're stupid and frantic.

stop trying to hide.
i'll kill you, too.
i wont hesitate
to choke you and make you go blue.

you see, i have secrets.
i must hide these forbidden acts.
and if you discover these things,
i'll keep making illegal pacts.

you see, kacchan, i'm not like i used to be.
yaki and i, we have a secret.
something that you can't see.

i'll leave you alone for now,
but remember i'll always be here.
through life, through death,
i'll always torment you
and me.

this will probably the only update for today, since i injured my arm and it hurts when i bend or put pressure on it. i'll post more chapters tomorrow!

love y'all :3 💕

-desperatae