I'll never love again - Breaky/Dealor ✔️

Chapter 9

Just don't kill me for not updating for so long. I don't even have a good excuse.
Next I'm gonna write second part of Used oneshoot because everyone is asking for that.
Let me know in the coments what do you think about this chapter.
If there's any mistakes just point it out. Like I said english is not my first language and I'm still trying to make it better.
Have a nice day bitcheeez.

Two weeks later.

John's POV

I've never been happier. We're spending together so much time with Brian. He's so caring and loving ... It's like we fall in love with eachother all over again. It was perfect, we didn't have a simple fight, yet. Of course I don't want to argue but sometimes I just can't stop myself. It feels almost like someone else was controlling my mind sometimes.

It seems that I'm quiet and shy but I easily loose my temper. And maybe I'm just a little overdramatic. I'm working on that in therapy and they think I'm making progress. My boyfriend is telling me how proud he is everyday and it really keeps me going . Brian also is going to the therapy but different one - non group. He's trying to quit drinking and I'm so proud of him too.

I felt safe again in his lanky arms. I chuckled when his stubble tickled my cheek. I was in his lap and we were watching some horror movie.
"You need to shave, love ..." I said caresing his cheek.
"Maybe I'll grow a beard ..." he said.
I frowned and sighed.
"Noooo, no beard. That's gross. I like your smooth face ..." I said leaning in.
"You sound like a little baby but if you saying so princess..." he said and our lips were almost touching each other.
"Mhmmm ..." I said kissing him lovingly.

I tugged his shirt and moaned letting his tongue in.
We stopped to catch our breaths. He looked in my eyes and laughed smiling widely. I couldn't stop looking in those gorgeous hazel eyes.
" I love you so much " he said and put my hair behind my ears.
I smiled showing my tooth gap. I was ashamed of that but never around him. I could be trurly myself around him. If I want to play with makeup, wear dress or lacy lingerine he just let me. And I can see that he's really enjoying that. I don't want to choose one gender. I just want to be me. I'm not So brave to come out to whole world but I'm so grateful I have him.

We don't talk about what happened two weeks ago. He was drunk and it was mistake. I gave him another chance, because I love him too much to let him go. Everyone deserve a second chance and Brian is no exception. I can see that he's changing for better.

"Love you more ..." I said pecking his lips and getting into his lap. He grabbed my hips and I was rubing my crotch against his. I bit my lip and moaned quietly into his ear.
"Please Bri, I'm sooo horny ..." I said and bit his earlobe "Please, the others aren't at home. Dady wants to fuck his little princess?" I grinned when I saw how hard he was just from rubbing and dirty talk.
I gasped loudly when he put me quickly over his knees and slide down my jeans. I bought pink lace panties  because I know it's making him horny and they really comfortable.

"Lace panties? Someone's very naughty ..." he said and slapped my butt.
"Ugh, yes I need to be punished daddy ..." I said puting my  Little arse up.
He slapped me harder until my bum was all red. I moaned whorishly and bit my lip, I had a few tears sliding down my cheeks. Pain is so close to pleasure.

"On your knees and keep that panties on" he said kissing me harshly.
I quickly left my clothes on the floor and did what I've been told to.
I unbutoned his troursers and took them off with his underwear. I looked inocently into his eyes and I smiled when he kissed my forehead. I stroked his hard rock memeber and gived the tip few cat licks while looking in his eyes. I took the head into my mouth and sucked gently. Brian was holding my hair so it won't get in the way. I took more and more into my mouth until his lenght was gone. I gagged when the tip touched the back of my throat. I was sucking hard and bobbing my head.