I'll never love again - Breaky/Dealor ✔️

Chapter 13

Roger's POV

I woke up pretty early, it was still dark outside. John was lying on the other side of the bed, facing me and snoring softly. His hair was all over the place and his cheeks were flushed a little. I smiled and brushed away a strand of hair which was covering his face. It was the most beautiful sight in the whole wide world, I want to wake up like this every single day of my life. I was looking at him in awe and I lost track of time. I went quietly for a smoke and when I got back I kissed his temple and smiled when he wrinkled his nose. John softly hummed and opened his beautiful green eyes.
"Hey ..." I smiled at his hoarse voice.
"Hello sleeping beauty ..." I kissed him softly.
"How long I was sleeping?"
"It's nine am, what you want for breakfast?"
"Cheese on toast"
I chuckled lightly and shaked my head.
"Really? We have whole weekend so I can make something more fancy ..."
"Cheese on toast chubby, pleeeeeease" he pounted.

"You're so beautiful like this, you know?" I kissed his jawline.
He blushed even more and hold my head in his hands.
"I'm not. My hair are messy, I didn't brushed my teeth yet and I'm wearing my old pj's ..."
"Don't say that. You're the most beautiful human in the world and I'm so lucky waking up every day with you by my side ..." I said looking in his eyes.
"I-I love you so much, I couldn't dream of a better boyfriend to be honest ..." he said through the tears.
I kissed his wet cheeks and went to the kitchen to make breakfast for us. I just served big plate of cheese on toast and black coffee. I smiled when I saw him in the kitchen. He was wearing tight jeans and my hoodie. His hair were in this cute messy bun. He grabbed his plate and sat reading newspaper, cup of coffee in his second arm.
"What are you doing? Can you look at me at least?"
"Hm?" He raised an eyebrow an quickly looked at me.
"Can we eat breakfast and spend sometime together?"
"You told me to look for a job!"
"First of all, calm down a little and take your meds alright? And yeah, I told you that but you can do it on Monday. I'm working so much I just miss you, and I want to spend some time together ..."

I could see he was angry but he didn't said anything. We finished breakfast in silence and he took his meds. I did the dishes and looked at him.
"Are you mad at me?"
"You told me to look for a job and you're mad at me when I'm doing it ... I'm just so confused"
"You can to it later, I want to spend this weekend with you my love."
I caresed his cheek and kissed him softly. He hummed in agreement and hugged me tightly.
"Oh baby,  don't cry ..." I said caresing his hair.
"You want to cuddle?" he noded hiding his face in the crook of my neck.
I could feel his tears on my skin. I picked up him bridal style and gently put him on bed. Living with John wasn't easy,  I must take care of him like a baby. But I loved him more than anything. He looked at me with his big green eyes and sniffled.

"Shhhh ..." I said softly spooning him "Why are you so stressed out. You just ate one toast,  is your tummy upset?"
He noded still crying. I softly massaged his stomach and kissed softly his neck. I was humming softly in his ear. After some time he calmed down .
"You said you're leave,  that I have two weeks to find a job ... Three days passed and I still don't have it ... You said you want to spent weekend together a-and it's another two days.  And what if I won't find the job and two weeks will pass and you will leave ...." He burst out in cry again "I don't want you t-to leave R-roger please,  I'll do anything I s-swear ... Roger p-please ..." He cried so hard he start chocking on his tears and struggled to breathe.
"John call down,  John baby look at me!" I turned him around and hold tightly his face" I won't leave. If you need more time it's fine. I just want to get your shit together because I can't work sixteen hours per day. I just can't. I'm exhausted John while you spending time in bed. I love you,  I love you more than anything but you need to find a job because we can't live like this,  alright?"

"Alright ..." He said looking in my eyes "Kiss me Rog ..."
"What?"
"Kiss me ..." He tugged at my shirt and attacked my lips.
I moaned softly and smiled.
"I love you so much ..." He said between kissed.
"Love you too"
He smiled and we cuddled for sometime in bed. He cooked pasta for dinner and we went for a walk together.