All I Need

六

Namjoon was getting his stuff ready for his daily after dinner trip to the gym when Yoongi opened Namjoon's door. Yoongi stood in the doorway as he spoke.

"Namjoon I need a favor."

Namjoon looked up and gave Yoongi a small smile.

"What is it hyung?" Namjoon asked.

Namjoon was happy someone was coming to him with a task. Namjoon thought they forgot about him and didn't find him useful. With Yoongi asking for a favor it gave Namjoon hope that they still loved him.

Yoongi extended his arm and in his hand was a flash drive.

"I've been really stressed about this new song of ours. We need to turn it in tomorrow morning. I was wondering if you could add the lyrics you've been working on."

Namjoon took the flash drive and grinned.

"I'll get it done tonight!"

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Namjoon turned up the speed on the treadmill. He has been at the gym for 3 hours and was planning on leaving at the 4 hour mark.

His hair and clothes were drenched in sweat. He had to keep pushing in order to burn the fat on his body. In order to become skinnier.

He turned up the treadmill again, not paying attention to the amount of times he clicked the button. When the sudden increase of speed hit, Namjoon was not ready. He lost his footing and fell from the treadmill. He hit his head on another treadmill and instantly blacked out.

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Namjoon opened his eyes but instantly closed them at the shock of the sudden bright lights. Instantly he felt an intense pain at the back of his head. He tried to sit up but was hit with dizziness and nausea.

"Woah! Woah! Sir, you can't get up!" A voice said as they lowered Namjoon down to the bed again.

Namjoon finally opened his eyes and met the eyes of a man in a lab coat. As Namjoon's eyes adjusted he realized he was in a hospital. Confusion over came him.

"You hit your head and some people called you an ambulance since you blacked out. You have a concussion so you need to stay over night. Is there anyone you want to call?"

Namjoon shook his head frantically but regretted it as pain followed his movements.

"There is no one I wish to call..." Namjoon spoke with a raspy voice.

They can't know! If they do they will think how useless and clumsy I am! They will hate me more!!!!

Besides, they won't even know I'm gone since they never seem to care.

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By the time Namjoon got back to the dorm the members were just waking up. He walked to the kitchen and poured himself some water. His head was still hurting and he felt nauseous.

The members began to make their way to the kitchen.

"Morning hyung! You are up early!" Taehyung said as he walked to the fridge.

Namjoon frowned.

They didn't even realize I was gone all night.

Everyone finished getting ready and they all headed to the company for practice.

Namjoon went even though the doctor told him to not participate. He can't let down his members. They shouldn't know.

When the arrived they put down their belongings and started to stretch.

The manger walked in and began to talk with Yoongi. Yoongi turned to Namjoon.

"Namjoon, the manger wants the flash drive with the new song."

Namjoon froze.

Oh shit.

I totally forgot! I was all caught up with everything I didn't get to add the lyrics!

Everyone stared at Namjoon in anticipation.

"I-I don't have it..." Namjoon said quietly.

"What do you mean?" Yoongi asked.

"I forgot to add the lyrics in..." Namjoon said looking down.

The manger sighed. A few members sighed and others cursed under their breaths.

The room was silent and tense, until a voice broke the silence.

"What the fuck Namjoon?" Yoongi yelled.

"I-"

"You have all the lyrics done! All you needed to do was add them in! That takes minutes! This song is supposed to be the main promoter! You are so fucking useless! You had one job and you couldn't even do it!" Yoongi shouted before storming out of the room.

Jimin ran after Yoongi while the other members gave Namjoon disappointed looks.

Namjoon closed his eyes and sighed. He could feel the tears wanting to fall, but he wouldn't let the members see.

He ran out of the practice room ignoring the shouts from the members. He ran to the bathroom and hid in a stall.

He began to sob. The pain he was feeling was becoming unbearable.

What Yoongi said was correct. I am useless! I can't do anything right!

Why the fuck am I even here?

Why the fuck am I even alive!