All I Need

十三

When they had arrived home, Namjoon went straight to his room to sleep. Jimin followed him in and stayed with him that night.

For the next week Namjoon was never alone.

Everything he did was watched.

The members took turns sleeping with him and going with him into the bathroom.

They didn't want to take any chances.

They haven't really talked about the suicide attempt, the obvious eating disorder, and the numerous amounts of scars.

They were afraid of hitting a nerve.

.

The members left to go get some groceries, leaving Hoseok and Jungkook to watch over Namjoon while they were away.

Things were going fine so far.

They watched a movie and followed Namjoon where he went.

It was becoming hell for Namjoon.

Every since the attempt, the company has been giving some time off from their hectic schedules.

He felt like shit.

He was delaying the members and their careers. He was holding them back.

Namjoon has been feeling trapped most of all. Everywhere he went, they went.

The urge to cut was becoming unbearable and Namjoon was praying for the perfect moment to run off and kill himself.

It would solve everything.

At some point during the movie Jungkook left to go make snacks. Hoseok stayed with Namjoon.

Namjoon almost jumped out of his skin when they heard a glass break in the kitchen.

"Yah...Jungkook are you okay?" Hoseok asked yelling out to the kitchen.

"Yeah hyung...I just dropped a mug.."

Hoseok and Namjoon stayed where they were, but when Jungkook let out and ouch, Hoseok got up to go see what happened.

"What happened?"

"I just cut my finger"

Cut.

Fuck I wish I could cut right now.

Then Namjoon realized.

He is alone.

No one is around to stop him.

Namjoon took the chance and sprinted for the bathroom locking himself in.

Hoseok and Jungkook looked at each other in horror after hearing a door slam.

"Namjoon!" Hoseok yelled as he ran out of the kitchen with Jungkook followed suit.

They briefly glanced at the living room and didn't see Namjoon.

They worried he was in the bathroom doing something he shouldn't.

Their thoughts were confirmed when they looked at the closed bathroom door with light coming from underneath.

They could hear sobs coming from the bathroom and they ran over to the door. Jungkook kept trying to open the door as Hoseok banged on the door yelling for Namjoon.

"Go get the spare key from the kitchen!" Hoseok said to Jungkook.

Without a reply, Jungkook sprinted off to the kitchen and returned in no time.

They fumbled to open the door, but when they did, their hearts broke.

Namjoon was on the floor sobbing with a blade in his hand. There were a few new cuts on his wrists.

Jungkook gulped and stared at Namjoon's wrist.

It took a second before Hoseok ran over to Namjoon.

This was the first time they saw Namjoon's scars. 

Jungkook was scared. He had never seen his hyung look so....

broken.