All I Need

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Namjoon sat on the bench by Han river, looking up at the star filled sky. He put his hands in his pockets and sighed. There was no one around. It is almost 4:00 am.

Namjoon couldn't sleep again. He couldn't close his eyes and relax. The voices and thoughts wouldn't let him sleep.

He glanced at the bag next to him and sighed once again.

He hated resorting to this, but he just needs some silence. He already cut, but it seems it wasn't enough.

He took the bottle of soju from the bag and opened the cap.

He began to drink straight from the bottle. He winced as the alcohol ran down his throat, but he knew he'd be able to have some peace soon.

He finished the first bottle in a hurry, but he took his time with the next bottle.

"Why can't the members love me? Why can't the fans love me? Why can't I love myself?" He whispered to himself as he took another swig from the bottle.

He could already feel the buzz, but continued.

He wondered what would happen when he got drunk.

Would he accidentally fall into the river and drown? Would he get hit by a car?

At this point he didn't care. He was actually wanting something like that to happen.

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JUNGKOOK POV

We sat in the living room worried. It was almost 4:30am and Namjoon was still not back.

Jin had woke up to Namjoon leaving around 2:00am and he decided to stay up. He was worried about where Namjoon was going at that hour.

When Namjoon was still not back by 4:00, he woke us up. We tried calling him and texting him, but we got no answer.

"Should we try looking for him?" Taehyung asked.

Yoongi sighed and stood up.

"He's a grown man so there is no need worrying like this. I'm going back to sleep." Yoongi said coldly before leaving back to his room.

He was still upset with Namjoon from the incident last week.

Taehyung sighed and went to his room as well.

"Is Namjoon hyung gonna be ok?" Jimin asked worried.

Hoseok gave him a smile.

"Of course, it's Namjoon!"

Right after Hoseok said that, we heard the front door opening. We all stood up and looked at it happy.

Thank god he wasn't dead or kidnapped!

We waited for him to walk into the living room before questioning him where he was.

Though, we didn't expect to see him stumble in.

He had to grip the wall to steady himself. His eyes were half closed and his cheeks were flushed. He gave us a smile before he stumbled over to Jin who was the closest to him.

He was obviously drunk. Very drunk.

"Jin hyung!" Namjoon said as he fell into Jin's arms.

We all stared at him in shock.

"Yah...Namjoon...did you drink?" Hoseok asked.

Namjoon chuckled and nodded.

It was weird for us to see him like this. Usually when we all decide to drink he never has more than a glass or a single beer. He doesn't really like alcohol. I don't think any of us have seen him drink like this.

Jin guided Namjoon to the sofa before backing way. He held his nose and fanned the air.

"He reeks of alcohol!" He said disgusted.

"Why would Namjoon hyung drink like this? He never does..." I said worried.

The members nodded their heads.

"It is weird..maybe something is bothering him..." Jimin stated.

"He has been acting strange lately..." Hoseok said.

I felt like mentioning how thin Namjoon has gotten, but was interrupted as Namjoon began to gag.

"Aish!"

Jin put Namjoon's arm around his shoulder as he guided him to the bathroom.

Something is up with Namjoon hyung, I just wonder what...