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ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴡ ʙᴏᴏᴋs ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢɢɢɢ & ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇs ғᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʙᴏᴏᴋs ᴀʀᴇ ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴀs ᴡᴇʟʟ!☺️ ᴀʟsᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ sᴜʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴠᴏᴛᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴀʀɪ & ɴɪᴄᴋɪ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴛᴠ ᴇᴍᴀ ᴀᴡᴀʀᴅs!!

-𝟹 ᴍᴏɴᴛʜs ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ-

𝕂𝕙𝕒𝕟'𝕤 ℙ𝕆𝕍.

"-Things don't add up (add up)
Guess it goes that way for the both of us
Girls talk just don't matter
'Cause they say that shit just to hold you up
You took it for granted, I will never ever take advantage
Don't be so quick to take a gamble if you can't take the damage
You made me complacent
How the fuck you gon' tell me 'bout patience?
Every time I think we got it handled
Then we end up fighting 'bout the same shit
Don't you know we too grown up to be doing this shit right now?
Don't you know we came too far to be losing our trust right now?
It's been three months, you should what's up right now?
We've been through way too much to be fucking up right now
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (girl it's been three)...

You need more (more) attention (ooh yeah)
You know I'm busy but (but) you've been missing me too much (ooh yeah)
So much to talk about, sitting on this couch, but the silence too loud
Miss me with the run around let me know by now (let me know by now)
You took it for granted, I will never ever take advantage
Don't be so quick to take a gamble if you can't take the damage
You made me a believer, I said "I'll never leave ya"
Every time I think we back solid
Gone to the same old problems, yeah

Don't you know we too grown up to be doing this shit right now?
Don't you know we came too far to be losing our trust right now?-"

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𝐋aying flat on my bed letting my legs hang off.

I sang lowly along to the soft music playing in the background. It's just a little something I've been working on.

Yeah I know right, me writing music. But after what happened with Nicki I just felt it. It was something in me.

Suddenly the music stopped.

"Oh hell nah, turn this shit off! You're turning into a bitch again."

I raised up to see Rico walking in with a disappointed look on his face.

"What the fuck Rico?"

"What the fuck you, get your ass up." He yelled pulling on my covers.

"How do you keep getting in here boy damn?"

He shrugged holding up a key. "Imma always be here bitch! Now the question is what in the hell are you doing in here?"

I shrugged throwing my head back against the pillow. It's been about 3 months since I last talked to Nicki and it's really been weighing on me. Yeah she still calls and texts me from time to time, but I never reply. At most I might read her text but never say anything back to her. But what does she expect from me? Does she think that imma just forgive and forget all this bullshit. How she lied to me and keeps lying to me.

I know we weren't necessarily dating but I loved her. I do love her. It's just hard, I can't go through anymore heartbreak. After what I went through with Sabrina I just can't.