Ineffable Omens (Crowley x Aziraphale)

Forgiveness ... can you imagine?

 "What happens next?" Crowley asked, his forehead pressed against Aziraphale's.

"I suppose I don't know," the angel said, a smile tugging at the corner of his lips. "I was so worried about getting you back, I never thought about what I'd do after I got you back."

"Never once?"

"Maybe I thought about some things, a little."

"Like what?" Crowley asked, their voices both barely above a whisper.

"Like slapping you in the face," Aziraphale said candidly.

"Oh." Crowley took a step back.

"No, no!" Aziraphale said, grabbing his hand. "I didn't mean ..." The poor angel was very flustered. "I'd much rather do this." He leaned in to kiss the demon, but their lips touched for only a second before the demon pushed him away. "Oh. Oh, I'm sorry. Was that not—"

"No, no. No, you're—that's—damn. I'm sorry, angel. I'm scared, that's all."

"Scared?"

"I don't want to mess this up."

"You won't—"

"But I always do. I'm scared I'm going to hurt you again. I'm bad news. You're better off without me—"

"Don't you dare say that!" Aziraphale said, tears springing to his eyes. "After everything we just went through, don't you dare say that! Don't you get it? I love you, you idiot, and I hate life without you. I can't stand another day without you. I can't ... I can't breathe without you Crowley. I need you. Don't turn your back on me again."

"I—I won't. I promise. I promise on my life, as long as you'll have me, I'll be right there, by your side. I love you, angel. I'm sorry if I screwed this up, but I'm here now."

Aziraphale smiled through the tears that were welling up in his eyes. "Are you crying, Crowley?"

"What? I'm not crying. You're crying," the demon said defensively, quickly brushing away the tear that had escaped and raced down his cheek.

"I'm just—It's just—this is everything I've wanted for 6,000 years. I could go without the 6-year trauma, but ..."

"I know. Me too."

"I'm really happy."

"Me too, angel." Crowley's eyes lit up. "Here, I want to show you something." 

A/n: Hello! I'm sorry for the short chapter. I keep trying to write but it's hard. I broke up with my gf a few days ago, and I know it was the right decision and I know it wasn't a healthy relationship, but I keep thinking about her, which is probably not the best thing. She's still the person I want to turn to and the person I want to share everything with. It's hard to write about even Crowley and Aziraphale touching hands for a second when it just makes me think of her. I feel helpless and my thoughts keep drifting back to her. I'm going to try to keep writing this and give you the happy fluff you all deserve, but it might be a little bit longer between updates. Thank you all for reading, and I hope to update soon. Love you all!