Hope is a Dangerous Thing [EDITING]

Chapter Thirteen

"Noah, I am so, so sorry. I never should have called you hell spawn...it was rude to you...and all the history we share. I don't know what was going through my mind when we found out that you were what you were. I know that you are human in nature even if you weren't born human. You're still someone I care for heavily even if you aren't fully human. It's going to take me awhile to adjust which sounds selfish as hell considering that you are the one who has to go through this. I don't know how you're feeling right now but I don't you how you're dealing with this at all. I assume you're taking this pretty hard by all means. I can't even imagine how you're dealing with this whatsoever. I assume you're internally freaking out. I would too considering what abilities you have. I mean, you are the one continuously dying and coming back to life. I would love to see what's going on inside your head right now...and when you die. I mean it would be lovely to se-sorry...I'm supposed to be apologizing to you and yet here I am rambling to you. We both know I'm not the best at apologizing to people. So, I'm sorry Noah. I really fucked up. I treated you like the monster I thought you were instead of the person I know you can be."

    I don't think he knew I could hear him. His voice was wet from tears. I wanted to get up and hug him but I assumed we were in another hospital thanks to Elizabeth's antics. My eyes fluttered open to the sight I assumed we were going to be in. Dean was the only one sitting next to me. His eyes were red and a bit swollen. He cleared his throat and smiled at me. Dean wiped the tears from his eyes as I looked at the hunter next to me.

    "How am I," I chuckled as I looked over all of the machines around me. Dean smiled and for once showing me some sort of kindness. I made no attempt to bring up the apology. He was going to take that to the grave and so was I. Neither of us wanted a chick flick moment in a hospital for Christ's sake. "Are my organs destroyed?"

    "Yeah, of course they are. I mean, you were pumped full of drugs. No one knew how your survived. Well, no one besides the people who knew what you could do could tell how you survived."

    "Don't you find it weird that we haven't found my limits yet? I mean...I should have some, shouldn't I?"

    Dean shrugged, "I don't think a soul forged out of hell fire itself has any real limit. You are more powerful than Lucifer himself and I don't even think that he knows that."

    I nodded and leaned back as the door cracked open to reveal the others. They all carried some food which I assumed came from the lovely cafeteria. I reached out and did grabby hands to the food. Sam chuckled and looked at me as he set some food down right in front of me. A meatball sub and some Coke. I smiled and dug in, not even waiting for the others to start eating. My stomach was completely empty. I kept my own food to myself. Cas shook his head as I scarfed down my own food. I looked at James with mouth full of food and smiled sheepishly.

    Sam shook his head as he finished a bite of his own food, "You are one disgusting human being, aren't you?"

    I chuckled, "Yeah. I know. I am a disgusting human being and I know it. At least I own up to it unlike Dean over there."

    "Hey! That's no fair. Sam is just as disgusting as the two of us. He knows it."

    Sam shook his head and placed his food in front of him which was the blankets that covered my legs. I shook my head as well and finished my food in one foul swoop. Dean smiled and gave me a high five as I shifted in my seat and got more comfortable. I could feel my own body shift, my organs and blood being moved unexpectedly to my movement shift. Dean smiled at me as he took my hand. Sam raised an eyebrow, shooting me a look. I shrugged, pretending I didn't know jack shit, before turning back to Dean. My eyes shot down to the IVs in my hands and arms.