What If (St. Mary's U Series #1)

Chapter 8

I want to speed up the time. Pero kinakabahan ako at hindi mapakali tuwing lilipas ang oras. Gusto ko ng mag lunch break para makausap si Vernon. I just doesn't know where to find him. Our teacher is currently discussing about Stoichiometry in Chemistry.

Absent yung teacher namin sa Chem ngayon kaya iyong teacher namin sa Physics ang nag sub muna sa kanya for this day.

"The gas laws you have learned yesterday can be used to calculate the stoichiometry of reaction involving gases as reactants and products. If you can still recall that in a balanced chemical reaction, the coefficients of the reactants and products represent their mole ratios..." pagdidiscuss ng teacher namin.

"There are few steps in getting the answer..." He said then wrote some formulas in the board, he continued teaching us on how we will get the answer.

Mukha namang madali yung lesson, nakikinig naman ako. Pero parang bawat salitang naririnig ko sa isang tainga, ay lumalabas naman sa kabilang side. Ang ending natapos yung lesson namin na tinititigan at sinusulat ko lang yung tinuturo kahit wala naman akong maintindihan.

"Bilisan mo kumain para hanapin na natin si Vernon." excited na bulong ni Carlynn sakin, habang naglulunch kami sa canteen kasabay ang iba pa naming kaibigan. Si Chantalle naman absent, di na nakapasok kasi nagkasakit.

I did what she said. Halos hindi na ko sumali sa mga kwentuhan nila dahil gusto kong makausap si Vernon bago matapos ang lunch.

"Do you know where he usually go?" tanong ni Carlynn. Naglalakad na kami ngayon papunta sa gazebo.

"Hindi e." I repied, then scratched the back of my head.

"Wait! Wait! Girls, chill okay?" Natatawang sabi ng familiar na boses.

And there, I saw that it was James -- best friend ni Vernon. Nasa tabi niya si Vernon at may isa pa silang kasama na maganda at chinitang babae. Nandun din si Enzo, Calvin at Jed. Nasa gitna nila si Vernon at yung chinita na babae.

After I took a glance to them. Natigil ang tingin ko kay Vernon.

I froze.

He looked okay. He was laughing with his friends, kasama din yung mga babaeng naglalapitan sa kanila ni James.

Mukhang okay na okay siya.

Mukhang walang problema...

Parang pinipiga yung puso ko na hindi ko maintindihan, sa nakikita ko.

Bakit ganun? Why does it felt like I'm the only one who's affected on what happened yesterday?

I thought he wanted to be friends. Akala ko... Akala ko pareho kaming bothered. Pero hindi.

Ako lang pala.

"Uy girl, saan natin hahanapin yun?" Carlynn asked.

I wasn't able to answer her kasi pakiramdam ko tutulo na yung luha ko anytime.

Nilingon din niya kung saan ako nakatingin at nakita niya sila Vernon. "Ayun pala siya oh! Tara na, talk to him!" She's pointing Vernon. She looked excited. Ewan ko ba dito.

I shook my head.

Sana ganun lang kasimple. Sana ganun kadaling lumapit sa kanya at kausapin siya.

Nakakatawa lang kasi kanina gusto kong bumilis ang oras para makausap siya.

Pero ang hirap pala pag nasa harap ko na. Hindi ako makapag salita. Hindi ako makagalaw.

"He's so gwapo talaga... and if I'm not mistaken mga taga SMU yang mga babae sa harap nila." I think she already forgot why we're here, after seeing Vernon.