Lucky Girl (BNHA OC Fanfic)

48 // This Is Why I Don't Socialise

I was at a complete disbelief at what Mina told me when I finally came round in the hospital.

Bakugou was kidnapped by the League of Villains.

Mina was the only one to come visit me, aside from Ryu, who for one reason or another, refused to answer anything I asked of him. I asked him so many questions, but he said he didn't know or I'd have to find out myself, even when I asked about people's feelings about what was going on, something I know he knows.

Her explanation was long and shocking to the point of where I was stunned to silence. She kept asking if I was okay, which I was. I wasn't really phased by waking up in a hospital bed since it's not the first time, but it definitely got to me emotionally. I hate hospitals due to my past experiences, so I want to leave here as quick as I physically can.

My shoulder was a lot better now, thanks to recovery girl visiting me whilst I was asleep. Apparently I had surgery to remove the bullet, but if no one would have told me I'd be none the wiser. The pain in my shoulder has been reduced to a dull ache, but my shoulder now clicks when I move it.

"They're gonna go save Bakugou." Mina says seemingly out of nowhere  during a long period of silence.

"What?" I say, blinking at her blankly.

"Todoroki and Kirishima are in Midoriya's room talking about the plan."

I'm out of my hospital bed in a matter of seconds.

"Kiriko, what are you doing?"

"I'm gonna help them." I say, I feel like I really need to do something this time, considering my mission to help people out at the camp ended up getting me in trouble.

"You're kidding."

"Me and Bakugou have never seen eye to eye, but he's still my classmate, I'm not just going to let him suffer. I can't just be expected to sit around and do nothing."

I know that Midoriya's room is down hall from mine so it should be easy to find.

I don't have much reason to want to help Bakugou, but Kirishima cares for him, and if Todoroki is wanting to help, then I have to try and help too. Not doing anything has always given me anxiety beyond belief, there's no way in hell I'm going to sit in a place I hate and do nothing.

As I get to Midoriya's room, a familiar face comes out of a nurses office.

"Akamine..?" Seeing her here suddenly reminds me that I've been so busy recently that I've barely seen her.

"Hara?" There are dark bags under her starry eyes and she seems incredibly tired, "what are you doing out here?"

"I'm just going to visit Midoriya." There's no way that they want a pro knowing about their plans to save Bakugou.

"Okay, just make sure you're back in your room soon, I think recovery girl wants to give you more treatment. I also want to talk to you." I nod at her and she walks off down the corridor. She seems really out of it, just what have I missed?

I look in the room and see the three sat around Midoriya's bed, talking. Trying to look cool, I knock on the door frame and all three look at me, a look of disbelief on all their faces.

"Kiri!" Kirishima says, relief crossing his face, "You're awake."

"Sure am." I casually walk over to them, trying to look calm and cool about everything. Todoroki doesn't even say anything, he seems at a complete loss for words. "What's this I've heard about a plan to save Bakugou?"

"Oh well we're-" Midoriya is suddenly cut off by Todoroki.

"It doesn't matter. You're not helping." I honestly can't even come up with a response. He's being cold with me now, even after everything that happened at the camp? You have to be taking the piss.

"Come again?" Maybe being shot gave me confidence, or maybe my anger came over me but whatever it was didn't prepare him for my response. "Dude I just got shot, you're really going to be an ass with me now?"

"That's not it," he sighs and and rubs his face, "it's dangerous and like you said, you've just been shot."

"So? I'm alright now. Kinda." I very quietly mutter the last part.

"I'm not arguing with you about this."

"You're not in charge of me, man, I don't know why you're acting like this now." Todoroki is stood directly in front of me whilst Kirishima and Midoriya awkwardly observe the arguing. "It makes no sense, why do you decide to act weird now?"

"You're one to talk. You've been acting so weird around me lately." My brain basically does a backflip as I realise he's noticed my weird behaviour.

"I uh..." I don't have any idea how to respond, I didn't expect it to go in this direction, I didn't even expect to end up arguing with him.

"Am I unsightly to you?" He mutters in a very quiet, low voice, it sounds like he's mainly asking himself as he raises his hand over his scar.

"What..?" I'm completely taken back, he always seems well composed and confident in himself. I always thought that that part of his life was something he was in control of, I've somehow managed to be completely oblivious. "No no, that's not it. That's not it at all!"

"That's not it? So there is something. I don't understand what I've done wrong, Hara. It felt like you were avoiding me at the camp, I spoke to you twice during the entire time there." I can't help but blankly stare at him. I can't think of anything to say that could convince him otherwise without potentially ruinining everything, but what else could I possibly do.

"If you don't want anything to do with me then why don't you just get rid of me and make it eas-"

"I like you!" I practically burst. Hearing that last sentence was enough for me to realise I'd rather be humiliated then have him think that I view him in that light.

Blankly, he strares at me, seemingly unsure how to respond.

"You like me..? So you still want to be my friend?"

"Uh dude," Kirishima gets Todoroki's attention whilst I inwardly cringe at what's about to happened, "I think she means she likes you as more than a friend."

A painfully long pause settles among the four of us until Todoroki finally says something.

"Oh." Fucking brilliant. That just about somes up my life up until this point. "Hara, uh, I'm flattered, but I don't feel that way about you, I'm sorry."

I don't really know how I feel hearing those words. It's like a bubble inside me just burst and whilst is feels like a relief, I can feel my heart sink in disappointment. I've experienced emotional pain way worse than this, but that doesn't mean this doesn't hurt.

"Yeah, I know." I look at the floor, looking up and seeing those eyes of his will just break me.

"You know?"

"Yeah, I spoke to Ryu earlier and he pretty much refused to answer me when I asked about you," I rub the back of my neck whilst I let out a nervous laugh, "if you did, he would have told me."

"I see." Another awkward silence creeps over the four of us, "we can still be friends after this, right?" Todoroki looks genuinely concerned and I can't help but feel bad for putting Midoriya and Kirishima in suck an awkward situation. A lift in mood is certainly in order.

"Oh, yeah, of course!" I say, as chirpy as I possibly can as someone who is in a place they hate, had just been shot, and then rejected. "If anything it's a relief to know how you feel, so everything can just keep going the way it was." Smiling at him doesn't help me at all, I still feel rough.

"Okay good." He tries to smile at me back.

"Yeah, good." I rock back on my heels. I think that if I wasn't in a hospital gown, I might feel a little more comfortable. "I have to go, Akamine wants to talk to me about something." I turn to Kirishima and Midoriya, "I'm sorry about this guys."

Both of them respond with 'it's fine' and variations of it. I give them both a quiet goodbye before leaving the room. Getting to the door frame, I realise why I came in here in the first place.

"Todoroki," I look over my shoulder at the boy, my heart seems to sink more every time I look at him, "about Bakugou," he looks fully at me, since I brought up the original issue again.

"You can't stop me."