Over and Over (On Hold)

Chapter 14

Our mouths moved together slowly. It felt like we had been kissing for hours when it was probably for a few seconds. My hands somehow found their way to his hair and his arms wrapped around my waist pulling me impossibly closer to him.

Wait, this is wrong. I'm with Mikey, I might not want to be with him at this very moment but I still was with him. I pulled away from Ashton. His lips were slightly swollen from the kiss and his eyes were a bit dilated.

"This can't happen. This is wrong." I looked at the ground and shook my head furiously. I just cheated on Michael! I just did the one thing that I hated the most. I felt my eyes start to well up a bit. Ashton slipped his index finger under my chin and forced me to look into his soft eyes.

He sighed. "I know it can't right now, but just know I will wait for you forever." He gently kissed my lips once before pulling away from me. A single tear slid down my cheek before I brushed it off with the back of my hand. I looked back down at the ground. If only he knew that I'd drop everything for him. I looked at the deserted play ground and tugged on the sleeves of Ashton's flannel.

"Can we stay here until I calm down?" I still didn't look up at him and instead focused on my finger nails, the black polish chipping around the tips and nail bed. His hand grasped mine and interlocked our fingers. I wanted to pull away but I couldn't seem too. He squeezed my hand and I finally looked up at him.

"We can stay here as long as you'd like." I nodded and started for the swing set.

~Ashton~

I watched her body walk away from me. Had I mess this up again? I hoped I didn't. I soon followed after her. My arms were a bit chilled without my flannel but I won't show her, knowing she'd force me to wear it even though it was more important to me for her to wear it. I watched as she sat on the swing silently. I went behind her and started to push her gently. She turned to face me and gave me a small smile. I continued to do this until she was in a fit of giggles because she 'felt like she was flying.'

This is what I missed. I missed being close to her. I missed her trusting me. I missed her loving me.

I missed her.

"Ash! I'm so high up, oh my god!" I laughed at her, she was deathly afraid of heights but for some reason she loved swings more than the average girl. But then again she wasn't an average girl. I smiled at her happiness. I felt a rogue raindrop fall on my cheek but I didn't care. She loved the rain and so did I.

"Do you feel that?" I called to her. It was slowly starting to rain harder and harder. I shivered a bit and started to slow her swinging down a bit.

"You know what that means." I laughed, I did in fact know what the rain met. I bowed at her.

I tried to speak in my most posh accent. "My dear lady." She giggled, but tried to compose herself, doing the same to her voice.

"Oh what my fine sir?" I giggled at her.

"May I have this dance?" She rose an eyebrow at me playfully.

"You may." I placed my hands on her waist and she wrapped her arms around my neck. Her hair was soaking making the honey brown color turn black. She had water droplets on her face making her shine in the dim light. God, she was beautiful. I started to quickly spin with her, causing her to throw her head back and have a fit of giggles. I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist as I continued to spin. After awhile I slowed my pace down. She rested her forehead on mine and I leaned into her touched.

She breathed out a comfortable sigh. "That was fun." Rain continued to fall around us as we held each other. She slowly unwrapped her legs from my waist and went back to her normal tiny height. I loved the fact that she was so much smaller than me.