Over and Over (On Hold)

Chapter 8

"I can't believe you're gonna be gone for 3 months! We're gonna miss you so much!" I looked back and forth between Arielle and Jamie. I would miss them too. Tears were streaming down Jamie's face as usual, she was a total drama queen, but I loved her for it. Arielle was trying her hardest not to cry to but when she saw my face the tears were falling freely. I wasn't much for crying, but I could feel a few rogue tears sliding down my cheeks.

"I'm gonna miss you guys too." I latched an arm around each of them and pulled them to my chest in an embrace. I let myself real ease a few sobs before finally tugging myself away from them. I reached into my pocket where my fingers found what I was looking for. I handed each girl one of the rings and watched their faces to see if they liked them. "I don't want you guys to forget me. I mean I'll be gone for three months an all so..."

"How could we forget our best friend!?" They laughed through their tears at me. Arielle slipped the gold band around her finger while Jamie slipped the silver one around hers. My ring was a black color, it fit nicely on my middle finger. I looked between the girls one last time before grabbing my bags and walking to the terminal. I felt an arm wrap around my waist. I glanced up at Mikey, his hair now a reddish color, since he wanted to change it before we went to London.

"How are you feeling?" I looked back at my crying friends. My eyes watered a bit more.

"I'm excited but I'm gonna miss them a lot." My voice wavered as I looked forward. Ashton was watching me too now. Our eyes met but I quickly looked at the ground. I could tell he wanted to help, and he knew exactly how to but he held himself back. All I wanted was to wrapped up in his arms but this couldn't happen again.

I felt like I was an addict and he was my drug, I couldn't let myself go through another relapse. Just imagining the gentle touches and sweet kisses have me butterflies in my stomach. I pushed those feelings away though and looked at the boy holding my waist. His eyes were full of love but mine were only full of like. Why couldn't I like him more than Ashton?

Maybe I could learn to love him the way I loved Ashton. I know that makes me sound horrible but I couldn't handle being hurt again and I don't think he will hurt me like that. I hope he wont hurt me like that.

We were entering the plane and sitting in our seats. I had a middle seat next to Mikey and hopefully Anne Marie. Yes I realize she is Ashton's mom and I shouldn't want to sit with her since she birthed the boy who cheated on me but goodness did I miss her. I looked up hoping to see her face but instead my eyes landed on a mop of curly blondish-brown. I let out a small sigh. His hazel eyes pierced mine, but from the corner of my eye I saw a familiar figure move on to the plane.

"Anne Marie!" I jumped from my seat and pushed past Ashton. Her arms wrapped around me and she squeezed my body tightly. The hug felt amazing, I missed this. I missed being close with his family, they had been my second family.

"Oh Harley it's so good to see you! We've all missed you so much!" I squeezed her a bit more before pulling back to smile at her.

"I've missed you all too! How are Harry and Lauren?" Harry and Lauren were Ashton's younger siblings.

"Oh they are great! They are staying at their grandpa's while I come and help Liz out with the boys, they are really excited but I'm gonna miss my babies." I smiled.

I felt a presence behind me and turned to look at Ashton who's mouth was agape. I don't know why he looked so shocked, he knew I was close with his mom, maybe it was because I looked so happy to see her. I laughed at his expression which caused him to come back to reality. He sat in the seat next to mine and I frowned slightly. Anne Marie looked confused but followed my eyes, she gave me a look of understanding.