SAVIOUR ♕ the society

1.1.4

"I'm coming with you." I said, walking beside Grizz as we walked down the street.

"No, you're not." Grizz says chuckling.

"You can stop me?" I said, raising an eyebrow and he laughs.

"Look, you're the only person I trust around here, other than your brother." Grizz says, making me laugh, "You saw Harry, he's going crazy. Luke is hungover and Clark is dumb."

"How does this help your argument?" I said, and he smiles.

"Because I'm taking your brother, okay? While we're gone, go with one of the girls and stock up on food. I promise we'll back by sunrise tomorrow." Grizz smiles and I gave him a look, but he keeps smiling making me roll my eyes.

"I hate you sometimes. You and that stupid smile." I said, chuckling. He laughs before pulling me into a hug, and I hug him back before we both pulled away.

"Go." He says and I rolled my eyes again.

"You boys look out for each other, I don't want either of you dumbasses to hurt yourselves." I said, before walking off and I hear him laugh.

I got to the grocery store, and I grabbed a cart as I leaned on it riding it around. I grabbed a few boxes of snacks before getting food I could actually cook, along with canned foods. As I rounded the corner I see a redhead begging Elle for a bag of carrots.

"Why are you such a bitch?" The girl says, making Elle turn around and throw a bag at her. She continues to push her cart but I pushed mine to stop hers.

"What the fuck?"

"Have you ever seen Maze Runner? Or watched The 100?" I said, looking at her, "It's my favourite. In these movies, they don't ever listen to the people they are supposed to but obviously they survive." She avoids eye contact making me chuckle lightly.

"I've always wondered what I would do? Would I listen? Would I sacrifice myself so everyone would live? Would I kill everyone? I'm not the villain, some would say I am, but I'm not exactly a hero." I said, giving her a look, "Who am I? But I'm letting you who you are, and you don't want to be that one."

I finished what I was saying and Elle didn't give me another glance as she rushed out of the grocery store.

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That night I was alone in my house, I hadn't felt alone in here because I always had either Grizz or Jai with me. I sat in my fathers office, right in the middle, just staring at the walls that had surrounded the room.

I had smashed the glass cabinet that held my father's liquor. Sitting down with it, drinking away my problems. Thoughts running in my head, about what was going on. Why? Why was this happening to us? I kept thinking as I flicked my lighter on and off, watching as the flames go by. Memories pumping back into me.

"Storme! Storme! What do you think you're doing!" My father snatches the lighter out of my hands, "What have I told you about touching my stuff!"

"I'm sorry." I said, looking down at the floor as tears stream my face.

"I've told you time and time again, never to come in here! God, why don't you ever listen!"

"Howard!" My mother hisses at him, "She's 6. A curious girl, there is no need to get upset."

"She knows the rules about the office Maggie."

"She's a kid Howard." My mum says, before grabbing my hand and we walked out.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean too." I said, crying and mum looks at me.

"It's not your fault sweetheart, your father can be tough but he means well." Mum says, caressing my cheek, "How about you join your brother outside?"

"Okay." I said, smiling and running off.

"Storme! You here!" I hear, snapping out of my thoughts. I looked up to see Allie walking in, and she sits in front of me.

"You alright?"

"Oh, just fantastic!" I said, giggling and she chuckles.

"What are you doing in here?"

"Pissing off my dad. He hated every time I was in here. He hated me in general actually." I said, as I took another swig.

"Your father didn't hate you." Allie says, and I gave her a look.

"You sure about that? Have you ever seen him come to one of my games? Or my art show? Or even to a fucking award ceremony?" I said, looking at her and she looks away, "Exactly. Oh, not but he had time for Jai. Always."

"Storme you're drunk-,"

"It was Jai, all the time. Jai does this, Jai does that. Why can't you be more like Jai? Jai got all the credit, while I sat there trying to impress my father like some fucking lackey." I said, scoffing as I took another swig.

"It's not your fault." Allie says, trying to comfort me.

"Yeah, it is. No matter what Allie, it's always my fault. My father was such a dick before my mother died, how was it possible he become even a huger dick."

"People grieve in different ways." She says and I laughed.

"Yeah, sure thing." I said and I looked her in the eye, "If my father had to choose who died that day, guarantee it would be me."

"Don't say that."

"Why not? It is the truth. I mean, look around you. We're in my fathers office, if you look to the left there. Jai's award for some bullshit thing, another wall there congratulating Jai on something fucking stupid. Me? My shit, I earned? Nowhere."

"I'm sorry Storme." Allie says and I scoffed.

"Don't be. I just wish I didn't waste so much fucking time on impressing him. My mum would always tell me that my father loved me in his own way, I believed her. I believed her because no way could a parent hate their child. Guess I was proven right." I said, taking another swig of the bottle.

"Storme, come on."

"Don't pity me Allie, I've come to terms with it. But you know what sucks the most?" I said, looking at her.

"What?"

"That no matter how many fights we got into. No matter how much I resented my father. There were little moments in my life where my dad didn't completely hate me and that's what I held on too. Reminding me that I wasn't always such a fuck up." I said, and I go to take another drink but she stops me.

"I think that's enough." She says, and I nodded. I let go of the bottle and she sets it down in front of us.

"Okay."

"Let's get you to bed." Allie says, and I get up following her lead.