In a Lifetime

Be the in between

My smile seems to fool everyone but me
I'm am a animal in a zoo, because I feel like I'm trapped here.

In this weird place between loved and unloveable.

I'm breathing but I'm not ALIVE,
And maybe that how I will always be,
Trying to Looking out for everyone

But excepting my terrible Fate,
This is not a cry for help,
but a unwanted call of reality.

Even the sunset days and turn in to
A battle ground.
You know it's hard being life full, when your heart has been lifeless for so long.

But I won't just breath, in and out
Everyday therefore
When the time has come I can
Say I truly am alive

You have to feel everything
If you want to one day feel
Alive
Because that apart of being human
Feeling the hurt, pain, loneliness, and
Everything in between.

I know this sound crazy but I
Want
Everything in between........