The Fading Darlings.

Chapter fourty eight.

When we arrived to the skatepark things were a bit awkward. Girls staring at David and I, same situation with Shane just a different guy.

"Hey ruptured vagina." Austin greeted me.

"Oh shut up, you know that's not true." I laughed it off.

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The day at the skatepark was pretty well spent, when I got to the doors of the enterance of my dorm building I thought for a moment. My life has changed so much, just look at me. Look at who I am, who I have become, where I live, who my boyfriend is, what has happened to me. Three months and so much has happened. I scoped my surrounding, across the street was a small store called "Splenderous" I've never been in there before but I have thought about it.

I looked both ways before crossing the trafic filled street, just kidding I'm using sarcasm, the streets couldn't be anymore dead.

When I entered the shop my eyes went straight to the cashier. He was a tall boy with dark brown almost black shaggy hair, he had a nice body, and was wearing simply just a black dress shirt, black skinny jeans, and a small white bow tie.

HE WAS ADORABLE.

I walked near him. "Can I help you find anything?" He asked politely.

"Actually, yeah. Do you have any journals?" I asked.

"You mean diaries?" He laughed at his own joke.

"I guess, I just didn't want to sound girly." I replied.

He stepped out of the booth counter and he led while I followed behind him, he had a really nice butt. (Lawls)

In the back of the store is where the 'journals' or 'diaries' what ever you want to call them were located.

"You can choose, to be honest I have that one right there under my pillow." He stated pointing at a purple diary with butterflies and smiles all over it.

"That's cute, let me guess you probably have an easy bake oven to right?" I teased wittly.

"How did you know?" He laughed. "You're witty, I like it." And he walked away back behind the counter booth.

I skimmed over all the girly journals and found one that really spoke. "Hey I'm Mary, ready to read my deepest most unknown and darkest secrets?" It had over two hundred pages, covered in black thick leather and a strap of red closing it shut. Perfect.

I looked at pens, I bought a simple black inked roll ball pen.

I brought my desired items up to the counter. "Wow such a hard core diary." He teased.

"What's your name screw boy?" I laughed.

"It's Gary, but you can call me what ever you want." He winked.

"I'm Mary, and we can be friends." I smiled.

I handed him my parents credit card.

"You always use a credit card?" He asked laughing.

"Wouldn't you if it was your parents and you hated them?" I asked.

"Definitely." He replied handing my bag, and card.

"I'll see you around." I waved and walked out of the small boutique.

I crossed over the still dead street and went up to my dorm.

I scoped my room, no one in sight. Jessica was rarely there; thank god.

I got out my new journal and pen.

How do you even write in a diary? How do you start off? Especially of so much has happened? Where do you begin?

I took a breath and wrote down the date which changed everything.

July 9th, page one.

        I'm not sure how to really write a journal or a diary, but here it goes. On May 4th, almost three months ago my parents sent me away to these dorms, and everything changed. I met new people, like Vince my best friend. Well I'm not exactly sure what we are..., I met Jason, Steven a.k.a. The twins. I met Shane, the pysco. I met Cade... I met Paul, Austin, Jack and I met David. Them are the people that made an impact on me so far, but I'm sure there are more to come.

        I'm not I fond with Vince right now only because he ha sex with Amanda and I hate her, I mean, have sex with whom ever you want; but with Amanda? Really? Jason and Steven gave me bad weed almost causing me to kill myself, so I feel indifferent about them loons. Shane was the love of the moment but he let Cade brutally beat me to death; which isn't cool. He also had sex with Amanda while I was in the hospital unconscious, then he tried apologizing acting like he had no part in Amanda, and Cade. He then later owned up and wanted to get back together, lol is he insane? (Yes) no way would I ever consider him, so now he made up a rumor about having sex with me and rupturing my vagina. Yeah I'm still a virgin, but there goes my reputation. I then met Paul who is perfect, he gave me all my tattoos and piercings, what a doll. Austin and Jack are two of my new friends, I like both of them a lot. And lastly David, my boyfriend; we started dating two days ago, only fault with David is I have to put up with his crazy ex, but then again he has to put up with mine; Shane.

        Anyway, I hope I started off this journal right. Though it is my journal, I'm the only one who would read it so why would it matter? If its right to me it's right! Okay, well I guess I'll write in this tomorrow? Is that normal? Okay, whatever. Goodnight paper.

I opened up my dresser to putmy journal away, but once again something caught my eye; a shiney cold piece of metal. This was really going to haunt me, I felt even worse about myself. How could I do that to my wonderful body? 

I place my blade inside of my journal, and pulled out some pjs. I got changed but couldn't help but to stare at my cuts, they were the ugly side of me yet I found them so pretty. Does any one understand what I mean? Am I loosing my mind and talking Jibberish?!