Heartbeat Song

Chapter 54

A/n: Hiiiii!!! I'm here again, pretty fast, huh? Yep yep! I'm currently jobless and I don't have anything to do at the moment, so, yeah, let's get on with the story. 

Here's my answer to the previous question: I always wanted to be a spy someday. It was a crazy dream job and I don't know since when did I start having that kind of crazy dream, but yeah, it's pretty cool and out of ordinary. Only my nephews know about it haha. It seems like only the young kiddos look up to me with that kind of dream. I'm actually influencing one of them and he said he would also like to be a spy someday ;) But of course, we have to stick with the reality and don't feed children some lies. I told them that it's not an easy job and that they must always be capable beyond needed and that they need to work their butt off in order to achieve such heights and they better start in getting good grades from school. Well, it seems like my advice is not getting anywhere at this point... poor Aunt :(

Anyway, here's the next question for you and me, guys: What is your most hated color, and why?

Let me know what your thinking and don't forget to write them down in the comment section. I'll be selecting some answers from you that I'll be using on the next stories that I may write. And of course, I won't forget to mention your names. 

Oh, and please don't forget to vote and let your friends know about this story. I will really appreciate it! 

Here's Chapter 54, enjoy!

~ Miss Elle

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Anna

After getting a ton of fresh air in the middle of a forest, I now feel much more alive and energized than before. Maybe its the work of a lot of exposure to negative ions around the cabin, and maybe because vitamin M has been doing a pretty job in keeping me well-nourished and hydrated. 

Either way, Matthew and I are now down on the road again after spending our entire weekend away from the noises of the city. 

Although it's Monday already, we still won't be back in our own lives and schools for now. 

We've been traveling non-stop even before the sun rises up on the east. 

The two nights spent with Matthew are gold. We've been closer to each other and we got to know each other a little deeper than what before. We got to share some memories, experience and moments of our lives before we even got to bump on each others' lives. 

We got to understand and connect to each other better than before. 

I managed to delve through deeper what's underneath his surface.

Yes, I, only I. 

There's nothing I was able to tell him. Well, aside from my good friendship with the awesome girl Cindy, there's nothing more that came from my mouth. Nothing about my past and identity at all. 

And I knew that he's been dreading to ask me about all of that, in the end, I still wasn't able to speak a soul. 

However -- I didn't say that I will never speak out. 

After the two days and two nights with him, alone in a well-polished and abundant cabin in the middle of the forest, it didn't become a difficult decision for me not to try to open up, once and for all. After all, the day is still long and I still have time to spare.

We're now driving towards my old hometown.

And yes, this is the place where it all started.

The misery of Anna leech Sparks. 

"Anna, would you like to get a bite, it's almost 1 hour past the lunch break." oh, I didn't notice the time. 

"Sure. I'm sorry, you must be starving. I forgot."

"No, no, not really. I'm worried about you." Matthew's eyes are full of concern towards me. He should be thinking of himself first. He's been driving for almost 7 hours without any proper pauses. We really need to grab a bite - not just a small bite, we gotta do big.

"No, I'm worried about you."

"You've been quiet, are you okay?" see? He's still thinking about me. Being in love means being selfless, is that it?

"I'm good, I'm just pretty nervous..." His eyes are now fixed on me. We just pull over next to a restaurant along the road.

"Don't be." He smiles gently at me.

"But remember, you don't have to do this if you're still not ready. You know that I can wai -"

"I'm definitely doing this." I speak with speed and force. He regards me for a second, looking deeply into my eyes, checking out if I should really be okay with it.

"Alright, Anna. I trust you." he holds my hands and plants a gentle kiss on top of them.

"But before everything else, let's get our fill, okay?" 

"Okay." I smile with him.

Matthew opens the car door for me and as I step out, it's as if a different wind blows towards me. We're now close to our destination. It's in the next city. I feel cold all of a sudden. 

"You okay?" Matthew enquires when he sees me with my arms around me. 

"I -I'm just... feeling cold" I say as I try to brush off the coldness that's currently penetrating me. Memories and flashbacks and are resurfacing, and it's getting hard to keep on the steady ground by myself.

But I'm not alone this time...

"Here, have my jacket. I told you to bring a coat with you." Matthew covers me with his jacket and pats me on my head. The weather is not really cold and there's not much wind around. The cold is just emerging within me. Perhaps Matthew is not cold at all, and the jacket is really meant for me.

"Thanks." He kisses my forehead and we both walk towards the restaurant.

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A well-fed tummy is equal to a well-filled mood. 

I feel like I can go into war at this state of mine. My energy spikes up after a full course meal. I didn't want to eat that much at first, but then I have a horse with me. Matthew insisted and I forgot that he's a basketball player. Food is essential to him. 

"Feeling better now?" This time, I smile with newfound strength. Thanks for the scrumptious food!

"Much better. And you?" He cups my face gently and smiles.

"I'm much better now." That's good to hear. He's feeling better now that I'm feeling better, how's that happened? Well, yeah, he loves me. Love really works wonders.

"Shall we go now?" I ask. As much as I'd like to spend the rest of our time in this cozy restaurant, there are things that shouldn't be delayed. 

"Of course." 

"We're closer to the town, now." I say, suddenly feeling a little knot tied in my stomach.

"I know." He envelopes his arms around me and let me feel that he's with me on this journey.

I finally decided to let someone know who I truly am. It's not because I want to do it, but because I need to - I have to...before my time runs out.

It'll be good when I depart from this world that there's someone who knows me about who I truly am. I will not depart without an unknown identity. 

I will not go with regrets.

This time, Matthew is with me, and we're all in this together.

The journey to my past. 

Here we go...