Felo de se
(The act of committing suicide)
When you are depressed
You don’t control your thoughts
Your thoughts control you
And sometimes
You want to escape
And suicide is the answer
How else can you escape something you can’t touch?
_the unknown
I’m the girl that talks others out of suicide
But has a hard time doing the same
For herself
She truthfully assures everyone how
Beautiful, lovely, wonderful and precious
They are all are
Because she doesn’t want them to feel the same way
She does
-the broken girl
Sometimes it scares me
How much I think about
Going out for a walk
And never coming home
How willing I am
To leave everything I have
And everyone I know
-s.m
Reaper My Friend
Funny how there is a loud noise in the silence of midnight
Or am I drowning in the darkness of my mind again
Pain hugs me like my blankets as I sit in the dark
Tears console my broken spirit
The last ounce of my soul left with my mother
Me being a bastard to my father was the first strike
My first lover leaving me was the second one
Now my masterpiece left me like a piece of trash
Or maybe I am trash
Kept on lying to myself thinking am worth loving
Who would love this thing?
Maybe mother loved me cause she had no choice
As she had given life to me
A waste of protein is what I am to him
The sperm he released was because of thirst
Nothing more
Nothing less
So I beg you
Reaper my friend
I have nothing left in this world
Take me
As I will welcome you with open arms
_Nicolas December
How did we go,
From those little 5 year olds
To this?
Depression is being colour-blind
And constantly being told
How beautiful the world is…
-sad soul
Depression hugs me
Like a coffin that hugs a corpse
Pain fills my heart
Runs in my mind like a child running around in the park
As I spend time with others
He sleeps
Giving me time to act like “I am okay”
Until it’s dark
And it’s just me and him
Fighting and making out
A feeling I got used to
My tears are now hugs from you
To know that you have arrived
Depression is your kiss of death
Anxiety is the pat on the back that
“It’s all up to you, choose your fate”
Thank you
For being a friend to me
To my friend_pain
-Nicolas December
Every time they say
It will be okay
I just see myself
Leaving this world
Because I’m not okay
I’m never okay
I’m just good at pretending
Because they will never understand what I’m going through _f.p
Depression leaves my pillow wetter
Than a male does to a pussy
During sex
-Nicolas December
You don’t get it okay
It’s not easy for me
To explain
But I’m not trying
To be lazy,
It’s just that I’m so
Tired
And I have no
Motivation
To succeed
And I don’t even
Know why this life
Is happening to me
-r.i.d
The
Demons
Are back and
Stronger than ever
They are looking for
A fight. Looking to win and
This time, I might just let them
- k.c.w.
The pain hurts like an open wound
In hot water
While my heart is
Drowning in pain
Like a fish stuck on land
-Nicolas December
I used to refuse to go to sleep
But now I crave sleep so much
And only after realising that
I cannot kill myself at this hour
Is when I manage to sleep…
_f.p
I lost two people
I lost myself
And I lost someone who made me
So happy in a way no one else would
Over this pain that’s unexplainable
…
Life is unfair
_f.p
I still don’t understand
Why I care about what people will say
After I’ve freed myself
From suffering
In a world
I exist
Not
By
My
Choice
_A.suavè
He asked
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
I replied
“I didn’t want to scare you”
♠Unloved. Misfit
Losing faith is easy.
First you pray on your knees
Till your knees get hurt
Then you stand up.
Now you pray on your feet
Till you get no answer.
Just like that, faith is gone
_M.SH
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THE LOST LETTER
Poetry"The lost letter" (continuation of I am not to blame) book Written to show the issues that some teenagers fight On a daily basis, divorced parents, losing a parent Depression, and loneliness In a form of a letter.It's written to let them know That...