THE LOST LETTER

Continues

AFTERSCHOOL
When it was my time to head home, she called to ask if I could kindly
Wait for her outside the school gate
I took a moment to think about what she just said:

“Please baby I’m begging you, I want to talk to you” she said while crying

Okay no problem I’m waiting for you” I replied then hung up quickly

I can’t just let some stranger ruin what me and my baby have,
Or should I leave her?
Because no queen who values herself would kiss a servant while she’s sleeping with a king.
I was so confused, I didn’t know what to do

Living inside of my head
Trapped & I’m trynna get out
Look what you did to me now
                                           _A-Reece

After a few minutes I saw her walking towards me, with her ashamed face,
She looked so innocent, I swear if I told people she cheated they wouldn’t believe me,

“Baby I won’t waste your time but I just need you to forgive me for what I did, if you’re willing to end this relationship id understand but at least forgive me, I can’t live knowing that you hate me and I…”
I pulled her closer and stopped her from talking
I don’t hate you goddammit…I fucken love you okay! You act like a bitch sometimes!

I hugged her, told her we’d get through all of this, as a couple, Stronger than before.
“You are my queen and for us to separate, is when one of us passes on…but for now,
Focus on me okay! I forgive you”

I said while holding her tight in my arms, and kissed her forehead
“Baby I love you, I’m really sorry, I’ll make it up to you…I promise” she added while crying

And there she was using that dangerous word again “PROMISE”

I’ve been making promises and I realised that they are hard to keep.
But why do people keep using the word,
Keep making promises.

(A promise is a commitment) that was my definition of a promise before I found out that the real
Meaning of a promise is:

Something that many people make
But few people keep,
That’s a promise
                         _f.p

But you know what, the future is unpredictable
I’ll see if she keeps this “promise”
I said to myself

I forgive people it doesn’t mean I accept their behaviour or trust them again
It means I forgive them for me, so I can let go and move on.     _Nicolas December

While I knew we had to work on our trust it’s broken
And what’s love without trust?

It takes courage to forgive someone who betrayed you,
And it takes more courage to one day forget all of that,
And make a joke about it

And there she was looking at me in the eyes,
She was able to tell that I love her and no matter what I will still love her.
Gave her a kiss and I went home.

I’ll love you today,
Hate you tomorrow,
But love you more than ever the day after                              
                                                              _f.p