«Just an Annoyance» Lee Donghyuck//Haechan

26: Break Up

She looks up in my eyes and doesn't say a word.

"Are you?" I feel like my whole body is about to just drop.

Her head slowly and gently nods, avoiding my eyes yet again.

I try my best to hide and blink away my tears. "So you just want to give up? You want to give up everything I've given you, all the happiness we've shared, you want to give up on the support we have for each other, the honesty, the amazing moments we've had? All because of one fight?" I say with a shaky voice.

"I don't know." She looks at me again with tears in her eyes. "I can't worry about keeping a relationship, Jisung, my dad, my brother, Chenle, therapy, and everything else. I just can't."

"So you're ending the one that made you the happiest." I feel my shoulders slump. "I've given you so much, and you've done the same, you really just want to end it?"

"I'm sorry." She shakes her head and looks down at her feet.

"I can't lose you."

"Please, just, just go."

"Miyoung, you can't do this to me."

"Go." She looks me in my eyes. "Just leave."

I start to cry and I turn away. I see my keys on the counter and grab them. I run to my truck and sit in my seat. I can just feel my eyes burning with tears and I break down.

I just lost the best thing in my life. The one that knows me best, has my secrets, all my cares and worries, my best friend. I just lost her.

I start my truck and drive home. My vision is blurry from all my tears and I can't see very well, but I don't care anymore, I just want to be home for once.

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I turn my truck off and run inside, throwing my keys on the counter and just burying my face in my pillow. My tears soak my pillow and my hands hurt from gripping it so much.

My phone starts to blow up with text messages, calls, and FaceTimes from everyone. I ignore them all and just let myself drown in my own tears. With all the bruises, scratches, and all the other pain I've had, they don't compare to what I'm feeling.

I can feel myself hyperventilating and I try to calm myself down by taking deep breaths. I sit up from my pillow and wipe my eyes.

I see the ponytail on my wrist and take it off. I throw it across my room and pull my hair. My eyes sting from all the tears and I can't help but realize how I truly feel about her.

I'm in love with her.

I'm obsessed with her. She won't leave my mind, I'm losing it because of her, and I can't imagine myself without her. I just love her. I ruined it all by lying to her, and myself. If I would've told her I loved her she would've known and I wouldn't be here right now, wishing to go back in time.

I wipe my tears away again and try to catch my breath. I pick up my phone and see all the messages.

7 missed calls.

5 missed FaceTime calls.

14 unread messages.

6 snapchats.

Loud ass kid
Dude I just heard from Miyoung. Are you okay?

Loud ass kid
Do you want to talk?

Loud ass kid
She said she feels bad that she had to do it

Loud ass kid
Just answer me when you can or are feeling a little better. I'm so sorry :(