Deal With The Pain | Namgi

Chapter 11

"This is so nice. I haven't gotten to actually sit down and catch up with you or anything of the sort in so long." Jimin giggles softly as our drinks are sat down in front of us. I smile at this, shrugging lightly.

"Jiminie, you know there's not a lot to catch up with me on. You know my schedule just as well as I do unless something unexpected comes up." I chuckle lightly before grabbing my glass of water and taking a sip.

"Yeah, but you're always so busy. You've never talked about your past that got you here or your family, why you chose to get your medical degree or open the shop up. I may be one of your friends, and I can answer questions like what you do and your schedule and that your favorite color is a soft pink, but I don't know a thing about you before we came here." Jimin points out before taking a sip of his own drink. I bite my lip gently at this, suddenly feeling somewhat uncertain.

"You... You wanna know about my family and my past?" I ask quietly, gulping a little. He gives me a small but bright smile, nodding.

"Yeah, if you're comfortable with that, of course." Jimin replies calmly, still smiling. I take a deep breath at this, nodding.

"I guess you kinda deserve to know. But... Please don't tell the others? It's still really personal, but I know I can trust you and I feel like you deserve to know the person you're trying to get yourself involved in." I breathe out before running a hand through my hair. He smiles again, nodding.

"I promise, hyung." Jimin agrees softly, clearly beginning to feel the weight of the information he's about to receive.

"Okay. Umm... So, you all noticed that it was the first time seeing my father around at the bakery. He, uh... My brother has kept him away from me for a long time now, protecting me. When... When I was in elementary school, I had a baby sister. Her, my brother, and I were extremely close. She-she was the sweetest girl I knew. So smart and bright. She wanted to open up her own bakery with me when she got older and got through school. I-I promised her, I promised I would open up a bakery with her, and the bakery I own, the one you work at, is proof of my kept promise." I start, struggling to find the right way to explain.

Jimin listens intently though, a soft look on his face as he watches.

"What happened to her?" Jimin asks softly, obviously recognizing the lack of a second owner. I smile as I look back up at him from the table, running a hand through my hair once more.

"She had a heart disease. I-I never really figured out what was wrong with her, my brother and I weren't old enough to really know what it was and our parents wouldn't explain the exact problem. Just that she wasn't doing well. She was- she was so brave. Talking to me about that bakery nearly every single day she spent in the hospital, every single day I visited. Coming up with plans and designs and recipes, all of it. I-I walked in one day though, and I walked in just as she flatlined." I explain, holding back the tears that hold so much pain and so many memories.

"I'm so sorry, Yoongi." Jimin whispers, reaching a hand out to take mine in his. I just smile though, nodding and taking another deep breath.

"It was in middle school when everything completely deteriorated. That was when I started hiding everything from Namjoon and when everything really changed.

"Growing up, I initially wanted to go into the music industry. I wanted to become some famous rapper and producer. It was all I really focused on even during classes, paying just enough attention to get through the years. Everything changed when my mother got sick though. I was halfway through middle school, only my second year there. She... She wasn't feeling well for a few weeks, and it continuously got worse. My father took her to the doctors one day, trying to find out while my brother and I were away at school. It took them a week to diagnose her with brain cancer. Gave her a year and a half max to live if they couldn't reduce it enough to do surgery. She, uh... She passed after three and a half months. And that ruined my father.

"He turned to alcohol and got really nasty with my brother and me. I don't know how hyung did it, but he managed to keep me away from my father up until yesterday. Kept him away from me and anything that had to do with me. It wasn't until the night of graduation that I saw my father after my brother somewhat separated us, bitching at my father about everything he was missing out on and how he was going to lose the last two people he had in his life if he didn't shape up. It was an ugly fight, but it finally broke him. My brother essentially raised me from the time my father fell apart after we lost our mom until now.

"As for the medical degree, after losing my mother, that was when I decided that it'd be the path I was going to take. I wasn't sure how well the bakery would do, and it'd be a backup if that fell through, but at least I'd be able to understand and even maybe be able to do something if something were to ever happen to anyone I care about."