Deal With The Pain | Namgi

Chapter 18

The two of us fall silent at my statement, neither of us saying anything further. Namjoon doesn't move a single muscle as he stands there with his back facing me, and I'm not really sure what to expect anymore. I don't have a clue of what he's going to do at this point, all I can hope is that he stays.

It's at least a minute later when he's groaning quietly, rubbing his hands over his face.

"Yoongi, I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave you, but for fucks sake, I want you to be mine. I never thought I'd have any chance with you, and I pushed myself away so that it wouldn't hurt as much. I don't know what's worse anymore though. Hanging around when you're already taken or staying away." Namjoon breathes out in a frustrated whimper.

"I want you to stay, Joon. I... I can't make that decision for you though. You have to be the one to decide whether you're going to stay or not." I mumble quietly, sounding somewhat dejected as I feel he'll leave anyways.

He groans once more before turning back and walking back over to me. He kneels down in front of me, and I can see the tears streaming down his cheeks already. The sight breaks my heart, but my mind is quickly dragged from that as he places his hands on my cheeks, a somewhat desperate look in his eyes.

"Don't even start that, Joon. That's considered cheating and you know I don't cheat. How would you like it if it were you I was with and someone was trying to get me to go with them instead and I let them kiss me?" I speak up, effectively ruining what he seemed to have hoped to do. He gives me a small wry smile at this.

"You're too good for anyone, Yoongi. Much too good for me, and too good for anyone else for that matter. I... Can I at least have my best friend back?" Namjoon whispers weakly, looking up at me as he rubs the pad of his thumb across my cheek. I smile at the younger boy, grateful to have made some sort of progress with him, even if it's not much for now.

"I would love to have my best friend back, Joon." I murmur happily, reaching up and ruffling his hair gently. He smiles a bit more at this before sighing, dropping his hands from my face before standing.

"I guess you probably ought to get back to the front of the shop and your boyfriend before he thinks something happened." Namjoon says quietly. I smile at this, nodding as I stand as well.

The two of us walk back to the front of the shop, and it catches Jimin's attention immediately. His gaze flickers between the two of us as soon as we come into view, only lingering on me once we've both split ways so that Joon can go back to the correct side of the counter. I walk straight over to Jimin though, giving him a soft smile as I wrap my arms around him and lay my head on his shoulder.

"Nothing happened, baby. Don't start giving him icy glares now." I murmur softly as his arms wrap around my waist.

"Fine, but only because it's you." Jimin mumbles in a pouty voice, kissing the side of my head. I smile as I lift my head back up off his shoulder, shaking my head at him.

"How'd things go back there?" Jimin asks with a deep breath, rubbing my back gently.

"It went okay. He confessed and we argued a bit and he's decided that he's going to try and stick around again to have his best friend back in his life." I breathe out, trying not to feel too weighed down by all of it. He frowns though, seeming a little uncertain and doubtful.

"He confessed? What... what did you tell him?" Jimin questions in a small voice. I give him a reassuring smile though, not wanting him to feel this way.

"I told him that it was a little late, because I already have you. I told him I didn't just want him to leave since I was taken though, I still want my childhood best friend in my life. I just told him nothing could happen right now, I'm happy with you." I answer, watching the light in his eyes grow brighter again.

He leans in and pecks my lips lightly before beaming at me and letting go.

It ends the conversation between us on the topic of Namjoon, but I don't mind. In fact, I think it's probably for the best, still feeling a bit messed up right now and knowing I'll need to speak with my brother this evening to clear through it all.