One Million Branches [Vic Fuentes Book One]

Please don't take this out on me

So um, I tried to kill myself... It didn't work but I wasn't hospitalized because I took sleeping pills that just made me really tired the next day.. I have since then made three people promises that I wouldn't try it again, but I don't know how long it'll take until I become happy again, that is if I ever become happy again. Please stay strong you guys, I wouldn't be able to handle it if I found out that one of y'all killed yourselves.. I would be heartbroken.... I love you guys. ♥♡♥♡

SMUT SCENE. DON'T READ AROUND FAMILY IF THEY TEND TO READ OVER YOUR SHOULDER!

I love you all, please stay strong <3 :*

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Paige's POV
1 month later

Vic was distant and him and I both knew it. No one else noticed that we were growing distant. Vic didn't talk to me as much and when he did, our conversations didn't last long. School was getting worse and no one went a day without picking on me and it hurt me a lot, but Vic wasn't there to stop them. I began to relapse a lot, Vic didn't know. I wrote and re-wrote my suicide note a whole lot, Vic didn't know. To everyone else, we seemed like the best couple that was always happy, but I didn't feel happy with Vic anymore. I felt alone, I felt like he didn't care, I felt like he didn't love me anymore. I wanted to leave the relationship even though I knew I was madly in love with him.

I was sitting on my bed with a bloody blade in my hand, holding it up to my wrist. I was about to drag it across my skin when my bedroom door opened and Vic walked in. He looked at me and his eyes went wide.

Vic ran toward and and pulled the blade away from me then pulled me into his embrace. "Why would you do that to yourself?" He whispered to me.

That was it, I lost it and just started sobbing hysterically in his arms. I didn't think that he would listen to me, or if he would even realize that he was hurting me, but I decided to find out.

"B-because I-I feel so alone..." I trailed off.

"What do you mean you feel alone? I'm here for you and I always will be..." Vic said.

"Because you've been distant and I didn't know who to go to and it just feels like you don't even care about me anymore. I-I don't know what to do, you're the only thing that keeping me alive, but it feels like your not even here anymore." I confessed as I scratched at my skin.

Vic grabbed my hand and made me stop scratching then looked into my eyes. "I will ALWAYS be here for you. I'm so sorry that I've been distant, but I love you and I hate knowing that you want to do this, but knowing that it's because of me, I can't even justify that... I love you and never want to lose you... you're my everything." Vic said as tears formed in his eyes.

"But you haven't been there... The people at school won't leave me alone, we haven't been talking a whole lot, my depression is worse, I just, I can't do it Vic!" I cried out as I fell into his arms and cried.

"I'm so fucking sorry, Paige. I didn't know things were getting worse. I'm so sorry I've been distant, I don't even know why I have been but I swear to God, I'll never leave you. I love you with my whole heart, I love you more than anything in this world, more than my music, so promise me, that you'll never cut yourself again."

"I promise," I said in barely a whisper.

"Good, now, where are your newer scars?" Vic asked, saddness in his vouce.

I pulled up my sleeves and showed his, the scars weren't really scars yet, they hadn't completely healed. Vic looked into my eyes with sadness this began to kiss my cuts. "Vic," I whispered loud enough for him to hear me.