Tangled Up In Him (Complete)

Chapter One: Weightlessness

        Although I've only been going to Lacy Point Academy for a little over a month, it's felt like centuries.  I've always hated school and I wonder why I haven't dropped out yet.  It's always been too hard for me to make friends and now that I'm the new girl and it's almost spring, no one wants to gravitate out of their cliques to talk to me.  So here I am, sitting at an empty lunch table, writing in my journal.

Dear Journal,

That boy, Alec, tried to ask me out again today in second block.  This has been the second time that he's tried.  I don't even understand why he's trying so hard, I'm just an average looking girl.  I don't have long sexy legs or beautiful blonde locks; my faded brown hair is nearly normal looking.  I don't wear sexy clothes or tons of makeup and I'm sure hes probably seen me trip on my converse laces a few times since they are never tied.  Now that I think about it, he isn't anything special either.  His hair is dark brown and in his face, most of the time.  He has a deep voice that couldn't travel in a room if it tried.  And he's so old, he looks like he's twenty or something, perv!

        I walked through my front door and casually said Hi to my dad, whom ignored me.  Even though I hated school, it was much better than home.  My father paid no attention to me what so ever.  All he would do is sit in the living room drinking cans of beer and watching sports center all day.  My mom was never in the picture, she died giving birth to me.  The time I spent at home was either in my room sleeping, or cooking myself dinner.  I must have got my cooking skills from my dad though because I couldn't cook for shit.

I went upstairs and crashed on my bed.  I laid my journal on my nightstand delicately and ripped my clothes off.  I hate lying in bed with clothes on.  I lay there in just my undergarments, staring at the ceiling.  I ran my fingers up and down my stomach line a few times, over my navel, brushing my tiny hairs that covered my body.  For some reason this has always been soothing to me.  I fell asleep quickly.

I woke up in a panic afraid I was going to be late for school.  I jumped into my white skinny jeans and black polo and ran out the door.  The Academy was a twenty-minute walk from my house and I dreaded every minute of it.  I ran as fast as I could, I only had ten minutes before first block started; maybe if I ran fast enough I could make it through the door before the bell rung.  It wasn't long before I retired my running shoes, I needed to save up for an oxygen tank!  I lost all hope for making it to school on time and I just decided to casually strut my way down the sidewalk.  It was a little chillier than I expected it to be, I didn't have a chance to grab my sweater before I left this morning, so I rubbed my arms and toughed it out.  As soon as I thought I was going to freeze to death before I got to Lacy Point, a car pulled up next to me.  I looked over to see Alec.  Ugh.  He never gives up.  "I can drive you to school, you look cold." he offered politely and I half smiled at him.  I sure as hell wasn't getting a ride from him, I would rather freeze than be bombarded with questions about why I won't date him.  "No thank you, I'm fine." I stated and began walking faster.  "Are you sure?  You might be late for school if you keep up that pace." he said with a chuckle.  He wasn't funny at all.  "I'm fine." I reminded him.  He got the hint and drove off slowly towards school, probably hoping I would change my mind and run after him.

I stared at my feet, trying to shield my eyes from the bitter wind with my lashes.  I watched myself crunch on all the dead leaves that were in my way; I loved the sound.  Before I knew it, there were sounds of a car pulling up behind me.  It stopped quickly and I turn around to see Alec getting out of his car.  Again?  "Alec, I told you I don't want--" he grabbed me by the arm and yanked me over to him, forcing a small cloth over my mouth.  I struggled to get free but my body felt useless.  I was buckling under the weight of the gravity until I felt a sense of weightlessness.  I looked up at Alec's blurry face until everything went black.