My therapist. ~irwin~

1.Therapy.

I hurry towards the lift and press the button 5 and wait for the doors to close.

"Hurry." I mumble to myself.

Its my first day of therapy after a month of vacation and I'm late, like I just had to be the clumsy one.
The lift doors open and I hurry out running down the hallway. I stop at the door where it says Dr.Irwin and look at my watch, Phew only a few minutes late.

I knock on the door and smile lightly as I see his face opening the door.

"Good morning, Lia." He smiles moving aside to let me pass.

"Morning, Ashton." I mumble.

"How are you this morning?" Ashton asks me while sitting in his arm chair and pulling put that journal that he always pulls out when talking to me.

"Fine." I say.

He nods. -"Have you been eating?" He asks. He always asks me same questions every week, I used to lie all the time but he somehow always saw through it even though, he wouldn't say.

''what did you have for dinner last night?'' he questions me.

''We go over these questions all the time could we please just move on already.'' i groan.

''well you see, Lia.'' he pauses smiling. -''you cant seem to move on and you always lie to me.'' he closes the journal.

''I do not!'' I defend.

''of course.''he shakes his head sighing. -''Now.. what did you eat?''

i groan covering my face with my hands. -''chips.. i guess.'' i fliddle with my fingers.

-''anything else?'' he asks.

I shake my head. -''i had lunch with friends and I had a piece of toast this morning.'' i pause. -''I have been eating.'' i nod smiling proud of myself.

-''Okay.'' he nods writting in the stupid journal.

-''I'm going out for christmas shopping later... i was wondering if you wanted to come.'' i say nervously fiddling with my fingers.

-''Lia, as much as you know I would love to come along with you, but, I must work with my other patiences.'' he closes the book and smiles.-''do you still have the book a tell you to write in when you feel upset?'' he asks.

-''you mean the diary.'' i say nodding. -''of course, I write in it every day.'' i look at the nail banish on my nails, Maybe I'll paint them later.

-''maybe bring it in the next day so I can see.'' he smiles.

-''yeah of course.'' i nod getting up. -''well...see you next week.'' i walk towards the door and so does he.

-''yes.''he smiles opening the door and i leave checking my time. -''bye Lia.'' i hear when I get half way down the hall way.

i turn around and he is still at the door. I wave to him and he smiles, that smile is the reason why I still come here.

Walking towards my car, I pull out my phone checking the time, two already, okay I'll have lunch and go off to the shops.

...

24th December 2014.

Ashton seemed happy to see me today.

maybe I should buy him a christmas pressent, I still dont know why I write in this.

Shopping was exhausting. Mum is coming over for christmas and so is Aunt Milly.

Mum is staying with me until new year, then she needs to get back to grandma, maybe I'll go visit.

I still miss her, I wish I could hear her laugh. its been 2 christmas without her with this one.

i'm kinda suprised I'm still here, i mean if it was up to me I would be with Jane right now..but somehow I've decided to stay.

I fell starnge in a way, in a good way.

Amelia.