Love Find Itself

She

"Who is she?" this question keep playing in Anna head. Anna can't make Dave talk more about this 'she' because Dave look really terrible now, so she just let Dave keep hugging her waist while she is standing. 

5 minutes later, Anna strokes Dave hair, then pat his head and asking: "are you calm down now? Can you explain to me what happening right now?"

Dave lift up his head and look at Anna, deep inside his heart he know he can't keep hiding this thing to his angel, but on the other side, he is afraid to lose Anna when Anna knows about this thing. After being quite for several minutes, finally Dave take his courage, he is ready to talk about this problem to Anna, he already promised to her to not keep any secrets from each other. He take a long breathe first and looking at Anna eyes, that eyes are concern, that eyes are his shelter for now.

"3 years ago I met with her in Spain, that time I went to Spain to learn more about their history. You know how am I in love with that kind of thing, although my main subject in college was Law and Business. Her name is Graciella, I called her Grace. At that time, I think I want to forget about you, well you know the reason, so yes I got close with her, she was like my guide there, always be with me. You know, I found out that she had a similarity with you, bubbly, easy going and like sun, she made me remember about you that time. Then one day, we went to Barcelona and visited Park Guell. When we arrived at that park, she suddenly confessed her feeling to me and I accepted her. That time I thought that I already forget about you so I easily accepted her feeling, until 2 years ago. I still remembered it so clearly, Mike came to visit me in Spain and we met up, I bring Grace together, at first we only updates each other jobs etc, nothing important, but when Grace went to toilet, Mike showed my your photo..." Dave stop and look at Anna again.

"Go on," Anna said, she is so calm.

"The photo was taken in here, it's when you just joined this company. When I looked that photo, I felt like my stomach full with butterflies, there's tingly thing that I felt in my heart and that moment, I knew that I'm still in love with you," Dave stop again, he want to know Anna reactions.

"Then, what happened to Grace?" she ask.

"Well, that time when she back from toilet, she could feel there's something wrong with the atmosphere, but she didn't ask anything. After that, I drove Mike to airport and I went back to my apartment there. I asked Mike to send your photo to my phone, I forgot that Grace know my phone pass, so when I went to bathroom, she open my phone and looked Mike message and your photo. She got angry and threw tantrum that time, it took me so much time to calm her down. I said that I need to clear my mind, so we didn't meet for couple of days..." Dave take a deep breathe and let go Anna waist.

Anna take a look at him for a while and she go to sit in front of him. She look at Dave who close his eyes now, he like to recall all his memories.

"I met her after several days, she kept send me a messages and called me, but I just ignore it, then when I already settled with my heart and mind, I went to her. I talked to her about my feeling, about how I accepted her because she looked like you, I like her but not love her, I tried but I can't. She was really angry and said anything she could say and I just let her be. That meeting was my last time to saw her, I got back the day after to here, to prepared myself for this year. I made everything clear with her, and we broke up," Dave finished his story.

He let out a big sigh, open his eyes and find Anna in front of him. He is really afraid for Anna reactions, because this story might be change all opportunity that he has.

"Sigh...Dave, it's not a big thing right? Then why you look so upset and bad mood because od her?" Anna calmly ask Dave.

"It's because she is coming to this country, this city and want to meet with me. She want us back together again, but I don't want it. I'm in the bad mood because I know that she can ruined everything between us and I don't want that," Dave state.

Anna has a strong feeling about this, and she knows that Dave is hiding something from her, if not he won't feel so bad mood right now. 

"Dave, look at me now," Anna said.

Dave then look straight to Anna and look to her eyes. 

"Tell me, what is your hiding right now?" Anna asked him.

"An...I'm sorry, I really am," Dave start to sobbing.

Anna feel like there's thunderstorm hit her, she try to calm her self, then asked again: "are you...are you had sex with her?"

Dave can't say anything after listening to the question, he don't have any power now, so he just nod his head. That was the big mistake that ever happened to his life, he always feel like he is betraying, he always hope that Anna will never know about this, but then it's finally revealed. He can't read Anna face right now, Anna just quite with no expression. Dave actually can't fully remember what happened back then. He only remembered that Grace asked him to met her at the usual bar a day after they breakup, she said she want to have proper breakup and said goodbye to him, after that all he remembered that he woke up at his apartment and saw Grace slept beside him, naked. He asked Grace what happened but Grace just smile and said that they did it, even Dave was the one who want it. Dave then chased her away, didn't want to see her again, then back to this country.

"Anna..."Dave stop because Anna suddenly stand up.

"Don't talk..." Anna then leave Dave office.