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+ maegan

I rub my eyes as I arise from my almost peaceful slumber. Everything about Calum has been on my mind lately - about him and Madison. I just want to know what's going on between them.

It was been a full seven days since I met Dawn, Michael's girlfriend. Apparently, they had met whilst at the video game shop. Cliche, right? 

I yawn and yank the comforter off of my self, a frown sketching itself across my face as the cold air hits my skin. Sighing, I get up and walk over to my closet. I grab an Iron Maiden shirt and some grey skinny jeans before walking into my bathroom. After I change and brush through my hair - I didn't care to straighten it this morning. My hair is naturally really curly, and it's usually like going to hell and back whenever I do straighten it. I just really don't feel up to that right now. I walk over to my door and grab my high-top black Converse and slip them on, tying them sloppily as I yawn yet again. 

Walking over to the bed stand, I unplug my iPhone from it's charger and slide the black cellular device into my back pocket. 

I sigh heavily through my nose before opening my bedroom door and descend down the stairs. 

Madison and I have been fighting a lot lately. I don't like it, but it just seems like I can't help it. I don't know how to explain it, but it's a really sucky feeling when you're fighting with your best friend over some boy. Some boy that you love, I think to myself. I shake my head to rid of the thought. He will never love me back, he only likes me as a friend. 

Just as I reach the bottom of the stairs, I hear Madison's giggle and roll my eyes. "No, you hang up first!" She squeaks into the phone, me mouthing to her words. All I hear from her is Calum this, and Calum that. I don't even talk that much about Calum, and I'm the one in love here. 

As I continue into the lounge room, I see Madison hang up her phone. She has a big grin plastered onto her face, until she sees me, that is. She rolls her eyes at me, and I just do the same thing to her. 

"Madison," I speak up after a few minutes of deafening silence. 

"What?" She snarls. I flinch slightly. Does she really have to be so harsh?

"Question," I reply, my voice surprisingly calm.

"Ask," She sighs, looking straight ahead at the television that was playing an old rerun of American Horror Story.

I take a deep breath, trying to make the question come out without my voice cracking. "Are you or aren't you dating Calum?" 

My voice cracks at the end, fuck.

Her breath hitches in her throat and that's when I know it's true. She does go out with Calum. She knew how much I loved him- hell, how much I love him. I let out a shaky breath, only to inhale the air and make a sort of squeak come out.

"Why?" I ask, my voice barely audible as a lump forms in my throat. I close my eyes as tears start to brim them, not wanting her to see me cry.

"Maegan, I- we were going to tell you," She says, reaching her hand out to place it on my shoulder.

I flinch away from her touch, opening my eyes as my bottom lip begins to tremble. I shake my head as she tries to pull me in for a hug. "Don't.. Just... Don't."

Next thing I know, I'm out the door of the apartment complex and running blindly down the streets of Sydney, tears blurring my vision as random strangers give me pitiful stares and glances. I don't need their pity. 

I run into an alley and lean my back against it, sliding down so that I'm sitting on the cold asphalt. I hug my knees to my chest, not caring to keep my sobs quiet anymore.

I love him. I love him. I love him. 

But he doesn't love me.

He loves Madison.

wow idk about this one tbh but drama ooh. this was orignally supposed to be about maegan and michael and calum going to ikea but then this kinda happened oops.

srry i havent been that active and updating in like four weeks lolz oops. but i had exams last week and im just not getting to get my shit together.

i made a playlist to show maegan's depressed feelings and you can listen to that on 8tacks bc the links in the external link !!