crash ↠ hood au.

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a/n remember that maegan and michael are fake dating now !!

+ maegan

I yawn slightly and try to get up to stretch, but am held down by strong arms. I look down and see Michael pulling me closer and closer to him, snuggling into his back. I sigh slightly and pry his arms from around me, ignoring his protests. I sit up and put my elbows onto my hands, hiding my face with my palms. I breathe shakily as I try not to break down this early in the morning. I know it sounds pathetic of my that I cry whenever I think of him, but I've loved him for so long. So long. And Madison goes out with him! My own best friend! Ex-best friend now, I guess. She knows that I love him. She knows how much this crushes me. She knows. 

Yet, here I am, trying not to let out any sounds as silent sobs rack my body. I inhale deeply, try to catch my breath, only to let out a light whimper. I let my body fall to the floor before putting my head back into my hands, shaking my head vigorously. Perhaps this is just a nightmare? Yeah, it's just a nightmare. A dream that I will wake up from in a matter of seconds. I pinch myself and frown widely when I feel it. I let out another whimper before leaning my head back against the couch. I shut my eyes with a force, trying to shut out the tears, but failing miserably as they still fall from my cheeks. I let out shaky breaths after shaky breaths. 

Michael is now wide awake and holding me tightly while I cry into his shoulder, him whispering sweet little nothings like "shh, it's okay," and "I'm right here," in my ear as the sobs and whimpers continue to leave my body. After a long ten minutes, my crying subsides and I'm left shiveled and sniffling. And just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, the last person, or should I say people, walk in Luke's front door (Michael and I crashed on Luke's couch that night, mainly because Michael "didn't have the energy to run all the way back to his house before his mom noticed that he was gone). My eyes are as big as those of a deer in headlights as Calum and Madison stand in front of Michael and I, hand in hand.

I quickly get up from the floor and run into the kitchen. I lean on the counter, my back facing the entry way into the kitchen as more tears make their way down my already tear stained cheeks. I let out a shaky breath, and that's when I heard Liz's voice.

"Maegan, is that you?" She asks, worry filling her voice.

I turn to face her, my bottom lip trembling as she opens her arms up widely. I run into them, hugging her tightly as she rubs my back soothingly.

"Oh, Maegan," She whispers into my ear as I cry into her shoulder, trying not to make a sound so Calum doesn't hear what he's done to me. What Madison's done to me.

"Maegan?" I hear Luke's deep, familiar voice coming down the stairs. His eyes widen as he sees me in his mother's arms and he rushes down the rest of the flight of stairs, swiftly swooping me away from his mother before hugging me tightly.

"Maegan, babe, what happened? What is Calum? Or Madison? I swear to God, I'm gonna kill them both," Luke rambles. I pull away from him slightly before wiping my eyes.

"Luke, I'll be okay. They just showed up unexpected is all. I, I had another break down again this morning, and they came in right after I calmed down. It's been a bit of an overwhelming morning," I say, laughing slightly at myself before inhaling deeply. "I'm gonna go back in there."

"You sure you'll be okay?"

"Yeah, I'll be okay."

I wipe the rest of my tears away swiftly before slowly walking back into the living room where Calum, Madison, and Michael are awkwardly staring at each other. They all turn to me as I step into the room. I see Madison shoot me a sympathetic glance, but I ignore it by looking down at my feet. I walk over to Michael and wrap my arms around his waist before hiding my face in his chest. He wraps his arms around my shoulder and leaves a chaste kiss to my hair. My bottom lip begins to tremble as I feel Calum's gaze on me, but I refuse to let the tears go.

"Maegan?" I hear Calum's frail and soft voice say my name. I wince slightly and bite down on my bottom lip hard. Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry. 

"Hmm?" I ask, not trusting an answer as simple as 'yeah.'

"C-Can I talk to you for a second?"

"Uh, sure," I reply, my voice coming out stronger than intended. Before I go over into the guest bedroom on the first floor with Calum, I hear Michael whisper in my hear, "stay strong." I nod before following Calum into the room.

"I need to talk to you," Calum says, shuffling his feet as he sits on the bed. He pats the spot next to him, but I shake my head, knowing that if I sit next to him, I'll give in and forgive him for everything he dind't do.

"Why won't you talk to me anymore?" He asks, his voice cracking at the end of the sentence as tears begin to brim his eyes.

Fuck. I think as I look up at the ceiling before looking at him.

"Why didn't you tell me you were going out with Madison?" I try not to let my voice crack at the end, and, thankfully, it doesn't.

"I was going to-" He starts to talk, but I cut him off.

"Do you really want to know why I stopped talking to you, Calum?" I asked, my voice barely over a whisper. He nods slowly.

"I've seen that every time I'm about to achieve true happiness, some little piece of me says, 'You don't deserve this.' And another little piece says 'I agree.' And I need somebody to hold my hand. It feels like I can't breathe and I might drown on the way down," I say, and laugh coldly at his confused face.

"What are you saying?" 

"It's like domino's, Calum. You fall for one... they fall for another."