Our Secret | Taejin✔️

Neglected

Jin's Pov:

After an hour of pleading with Taehyung. The doctor had finally come and showed me how to "hold" my baby. A nurse had come by, but Taehyung was not comfortable with him, showing me so we had to wait until the doctor finished delivering another baby before she could show me.

I have a strong feeling that Taehyung and I are going to have a lot of problems when it comes to our child. He is already too possessive when it comes to her. I mean, I am her father also for crying out loud. I shouldn't have to go through that to hold my own kid.

I had to take my mind off his actions and now focus on my baby. She was absolutely adorable and small. I was afraid I would crush her. She was currently in my arms, sleeping. While her dad had pulled his chair up to my bed and was looking over at her in awe. I wish I could have my alone time with her in peace, but I don't foresee that happening.

"Can I hold her?" is he serious? You know what I am not even going to fight it. "Sure, Taehyung. Go to your daddy, sweetie. I lean down to give her a kiss but was met with Taehyung hands instead. "You can't kiss her yet. She is fragile, and germs easily travel. She was born earlier, so she is more sensitive to germs."

"Taehyung I don't have germs!" This is really irritating.

"I know babe, I know, but I don't want to take any risk. After you brush your teeth and shower. You've been sleeping for a while, and we are in the hospital. It's not the cleanest place, although it's the best hospital in the nation, we can't always trust that it's sanitary. We can't be as reckless as we used to. We have a baby now, we have to think of her safety at all times. We can no longer just think about ourselves. I hope you understand."

123 breathe...123 breathe... I mentally chanted. I swear I am about to get my ass whipped and I will take it cause he was pissing me off. So before I get him triggered or cause any harm to my baby. I turned my back towards him and pretended to fall asleep. If being with our baby right now makes him happy, then so be it. Who the hell cares about how I feel.

*******

After four days in the hospital, we were released home. That was a week ago. Taehyung had come around to me, holding our baby. However, no one else was allowed. Even when Jimin and Yoongi visited us, they were not allowed. He did not like the idea of his baby going from one hand to another hand.

He made it clear to me that no one should be holding her or touching her unless I was present. These were firm rules in place. I could not go anywhere without her unless she were with him. I cannot request or ask anyone to babysit her, not even Jimin.

He slept with her every night in our bed. I was worried he would roll on her, but that had not once happened in the week we had been home. He fed her, cleaned her up, read to her, watched tv with her, he was practically doing everything for her. I felt like I was just a guest in the home.

Since she was born, Taehyung only checked on me to make sure I ate and that I was good, but everything else was about our baby girl. I was okay with it. I am actually about to tell him maybe I should sleep in the guestroom.

"Taehyung, I have been thinking..." I hesitated for a bit when he looked at me. We were sitting in the living room, and Bleu was in her little bed in our room sleeping. Taehyung had the baby monitors set up all over the house, so he could hear if something was wrong. Did I mention the entire place was now childproof? She wasn't even walking yet!

"What's up?"

"I have thought that maybe I should sleep in the guestroom." As soon as the words left my mouth, I regretted it by the look on his face.

He shifted in his seat and turned his full attention to me, "And why is that?" his tone was icy.

"Umm...I...I just think..." I couldn't formulate my words with the way he was looking at me.

"I think you don't think Seokjin. Look at how good our family is going, and now you want to move to the guestroom? Why? Which guy is it this time? Is it Jungkook, Dr. Kim?" No, no, not this again.

"Taehyung, there is no guy. I just don't want to crush our baby on the bed, and you won't allow her to sleep in her bed so...I just thought, maybe I could sleep in the guestroom."

"Are you saying you don't want to be around our daughter? I noticed you have changed Seokjin. You do the bare minimum. I do everything for our baby!"

"Taehyung that's not true. Of course, I want to be around my daughter. I changed? That's not a fair statement. Yes, you do everything for her because you allow me to do nothing. I have been neglected, and your focus is everything on her. I don't even feel like I am a parent to her. I feel like a guest in this home or maybe an intruder." He could yell at me; I don't care, it was true. He took control of everything as usual.

I saw as his eyes soften. "Baby, I am sorry I neglected you. It's not intentional. You are her parent, as well. It's just she so precious to me I don't want her to get hurt. People hurt kids Jin. I don't know if you know, but people can be real monsters towards kids, and I can't have that happen to my own child." he said, looking around the room. It was as though he was uncomfortable.

"Don't worry about me, I am fine. I know Taehyung that people hurt kids, but she is my daughter. I won't hurt her, nor do I not want to be around her. I just need you to stop being so overprotective of her with me. She is my child too. When you do that it hurts me. Its makes me feel like I am not important in her life. It's like you are showing me she can do without me. What if I did that to you?" I want him to understand how his actions were affecting me and acknowledge it.

He moved over to where I was sitting and pulled my hands into his, "I don't want to hurt you Jin. Of course, you are important in her life and mines. Our baby and I cannot do without you. You are the glue that holds me together. I can't live without Seokjin, I thought I already made this clear. Our daughter can't either. I won't take her away from you, I promise. And as for me neglecting you, I will make it up to you. I wanted to give you space. I read online that you could be suffering from postpartum depression, especially after giving birth, and I didn't want to add to it. Plus you just had our baby I didn't think you'd be up for sex either." I pulled back and looked at him.

"Taehyung I am not up for sex. I might be feeling down, but I am not asking for sex." Where did sex come from?

He looked at me, confused, "but you said you were feeling neglected?"

"feeling neglected does not mean I want sex Taehyung." I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath.

"It does for me."

"Well, it doesn't mean that for me!" I snapped back.

"Are you really going to challenge me on that?"

"Forget it. I'll go make dinner" I pulled my hands away from his and got up and started off towards the kitchen

"Get back here, Seokjin! Explain to me what feeling neglected means to you? How do I fix it?"

Not this shit again.