Thoughts

Nightmares

Ok so I've been having the same repeating nightmare. The worst part is that is the nightmare is my worst fear..... It's always the same. In my dream I'm at a dark,musky random house. All of my friends are around me whispering. Some are crying. Some are just sitting there staring at me. My family is there too. Lauren and Megan and my mom are right next to me crying. Asking me why. I look down and I'm wearing shorts and a tank top. And I'm covered in scars and cuts. Every inch of my body is covered. They keep asking my why and when and how. I keep saying the same thing. No. Stop. Stop it! No. Leave me alone! No! I keep saying it until I'm yelling it. I start crying and laughing. Realising I'm going insane. Then i take out a gun....point it to my head, pull the trigger and boom. Im dead. Everyone is silent. All of the sudden everyone is smiling. They are all so happy. Everyone is so much better without me. Its at my grave and all it says on it is useless space. In the distance people are laughing and having fun. Then it pans to my friends. They are smiling. They talk about how annoying i was and how stupid and ugly and useless. They say how much they miss me and loved me. Then the laugh. They laugh and laugh and laugh. This is the time in the dream i wake up crying. So yea. Thats happened almost every night. It sucks.