How The Sparks Begin

Chapter 30

"What? Your outing with Erika and Elizabeth was cancelled?" Travis said, shocked.

I nodded."Yeah."

"What happened?" Travis asked.

"Er..Elizabeth was furious that I didn't notice your feelings." I replied.

"Oh." That was all he said.

I looked at Travis. I had this longing for him deep down. But I don't want to pay any attention to it.

That feeling can only grow.

"So.." Travis continued." You still not giving up on him?"

I nodded silently.

I felt really bad. I couldn't do anything to make him feel better.

"In that case.." Travis said." Forget whatever that happened. Go back to the time where we never even met."

What? Forget everything?

"No. I don't want to." I replied. " Not in my life."

"Why? If you did then it would be much easier for you.. and for me." Travis asked.

"Why would it be easier then?"

"Because..my feelings would get the better of me. I can't stop what I feel for you. And I can't lie to myself either if you're next to me." Travis explained.

Why? It's so hard to fight even what I have for Travis. But he..he feels more. He fights it everyday.

"Travis. I don't want to forget neither do I want you to leave me." I turned to him.

"Why? Why is that so?" Travis asked. He stared into my eyes.

I looked away. If I could just go to Travis...everything would be easier. But..I want Emmanuel.

More.

"Because I need you." I replied.

"Alright." Travis answered.

I turned back to look at Travis."What?"

"That's all I need to hear. I'm still your best friend but..I know that you're in love with me too." Travis smiled." And I'll do whatever it takes for that feelings to reveal itself."

What the.. I cannot let it out.

"No. I don't. It's Emmanuel who I love." I replied.

"I told you I'm your best friend. And that part of me would be cheering you on." Travis continued.

His words could just melt my heart. He would do that for me?

"Why would you do that? It's not fair to you." I asked softly.

"Nothing in this world is fair. And you asked for the reason. That reason is because I love you. I want you to be happy. And I'm willing to throw this feelings away for your happiness." He hugged me.

"Thank you, Travis." I smiled.

The bell rang.

"Come on. The bell has rang. Let's go back to class." Travis broke away from the hug.

I nodded.

As I walked passed a classroom, I could see Erika and an empty seat next to hers.

Emmanuel. He was sick. Or just in the room..I don't know...but I want to find out..can I?

I quickened my steps. I couldn't face Erika. At least for now.

"So wanna go home together?" Travis asked while walking.

"Erm..I have to er.. go..to..you know.." I stuttered.

"You want to see him?" Travis asked.

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Alright." Travis continued. He walked into the classroom and sat down.

I went and sat down too. For the entire lesson, my mind was on Emmanuel.

I remembered. How Emmanuel's eyes look when I asked him about his brother.

When he cried.

When he kissed me.

My heart pounded harder at the thought of that.

Could he possibly be in love with me?

No. That's impossible.

He was always being cold to me.

But yet. I feel that he is kind and warm in the inside.

If he did even like me then..

No. No. No.

That's not even possible. But whether he loves me or not.. I want to work hard to melt that cold heart of his.

The moment I heard the bell rang, I took my bag and ran out of the classroom.

I couldn't wait any longer. I want to see him. I have so many things to ask him.

I don't care about being rejected anymore.

He can yell or shout at me. Whatever.

But I've seen the effort and determination to pursue the one that you truly love.

I've seen it. In Travis.

Though I tell all this to myself...deep down I was pleading.

Emmanuel..don't reject me.

I stopped at the gate of Erika's and Elizabeth's house.

I walked in and stood at the door. My heart was beating really hard.

I knocked the door.

The same lady opened the door. This was the second time I've seen her.

"Hi. I'm Geraldine. Remember me?" I asked her. I was still grasping for air after running continously.

"Yes. Yes. I remember. Erika and Elizabeth aren't here." She replied.

"I know that. They're in school. I came here to see Emmanuel." I said confidently.

"I see. Emmanuel has been in his room all day. He may not be feeling well but do come in." She smiled warmly.

"Thank you. How can I address you as?" I asked her.

"My name is Lydia. And your welcome." She closed the door when I walked in.

I ran to Emmanuel's room. I dropped my bag on the floor.

I turned the door knob. It wasn't lock.

I slowly pushed the door opened.

The curtains was blocking the sunlight from passing through.

I could smell a fragrant of lavender. The room was neat and there was another room was further in.

Wow. What a huge place. It was nothing compared to my room.

And I saw him.

He was sleeping on the couch with a violin next to him.

He looked so beautiful that I could stare at him all day if I could.

I walked closer to him and placed my hand on his forehead.

It was hot. He was feeling unwell. And still he locked himself in this room alone.

I hurried to find a cloth and soaked in water. I placed the cloth on his forehead.

Suddenly I felt a hand grab my arm.

It was Emmanuel. Was he awake all along? He opened his eyes and stared at me.

"Emmanuel .." I said softly.

He gripped my arm tighter and asked the question that made my heart beating stop for a moment.

"Why?"

-To be continued