I don't look forward anymore
Another day, counting my life down
I can't draw, I can't write, I can't spell
I'm not the same anymore
I feel empty, purposeless,
A tree stretched too long without water
I'm just a money making machine
I don't have value if I can't earn anything
And I don't even get paid that much
I don't remember myself before this
I don't see myself getting through this
I see only one way out
And we don't have to mention it twice
I don't look forward anymore
It's a lie.
Deep down, I still wish to be saved
But I also don't want to be saved
I was here in this desolate place before
I don't know how I got back
I also don't know how I got out
I don't want to ask for help
I don't want sympathies
I don't want to be looked down
I also don't want to be alone
I don't want to suffer anymore
But I'm also not suffering
Since I can't feel anything
I'm just here with the void, in the void
I don't look forward anymore
Scroll, memes, laugh, life, empty
All over again
Shop, card, drop, card, drain, empty
All over again
Search, fill, seek, pour, scavenge, quench, empty
All over again
I don't look forward anymore
Another day, asking when I'll die
I can't draw, I can't write, I can't spell
My spirit has been taken from me
I am empty
I'm not the same anymore
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Cinnamon Shots
PoetryShots for strong, sweet, bitter, salty and sometimes, the favors mix so well, come see what you can taste from these words. collection of the poems I've written :) some of these poems are in freestyle or measured and rhymed. most of my poems are s...
