It all started with the pain (Kaminari x Shinso)

Chapter 9. I'm sorry

Shinso pov

I can feel it getting worse. I can feel my life slipping away. My life will be over soon. God why did I have to be such an ass. Denki is gonna hate me forever, or at least as long as I live. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I should apologize, I need to apologize. I don't want to spend my final days with him being mad at me.

"Denki I-" I try to say but Akasuki stops me, opening the door to her house.

"What took you so long?" Akasuki asks as I feel my heart sink.

"I'll tell you later....." I say rubbing the back of my neck.

"You're running out of later's Shinso" Akasuki says sadly.

"Yeah I know" I say sadly looking down.

Dammit try apologizing again. You need to tell him your sorry. God why won't any words come out. Ugh

"You guys ready to go?" Akasuki asks closing the house door behind her as she steps out.

"Yeah......" Denki mumbles looking down and I nod.

"Did I miss something?" Akasuki asks.

Just me being a dumbass useless gay

"Nope........" Denki says still not looking at me.

We leave the driveway and start walking towards the school, Akasuki in the middle of me and Denki.

Why won't the words come out. I love him. I don't want to be fighting with him.

"Are you both going to be like this forever?" Akasuki asks.

We both stay quiet until I look over at Denki who's crying.

I need to be there for him. So why won't my legs move? God I'm useless. I need to tell him I'm here, I care.

I try to walk closer to Denki but stop when I start coughing.

Damn you petals

I look up to see Denki looking at me worriedy but then looking away.

He would never feel the same, he's just being a good friend.

I mouth an I'm okay as he turns back to me.

"Ugh" I sigh as I let the petals and flower fall out of my mouth.

I'm too exhausted for this

"Shinso" Akasuki whispers jabbing me in the side.

"What" I whisper back.

"Dude are you not gonna hide it anymore? Anyone could have saw that" Akasuki whispers worriedly.

"I'm gonna die in less than a week, does it look like I care?" I half yell defensively but not very quietly.

I hear Denki let out a sad sigh and watch him shake a little.

I can't do anything right today.

"I'm just- ugh I'm just an idiot today" I say as Akasuki nods.

I'm hurting him, heck I'm hurting myself. I don't deserve him, I never did.

"Useless, useless, useless" I whisper to myself.

Why can't I tell him how I feel. I screamed it before so this should be easy. I thought I was prepared but I'm not.

"Well we're here so I better get going" Akasuki says smiling.

"Bye guys" Akasuki says pulling her phone out and walking away.

Akasuki

Akasuki: Get your damn man, apologize before it's to late you dumbass gay

Me: I know I will, I've been dumb but I hope he'll forgive me

I stuff my phone away as me and him walk to our seats.

"Denki I'm-" I try to say but Iida walks in.

"Take your seats before Mr. Aizawa gets here!" Iida says moving his hands with every word.

"Dammit" I mumble as Aizawa and Vlad king walk in.

I forgot he came back to work today

"Hello students, for this class Vlad king will be helping me" Aizawa says unenthusiastically.

"Yes today we will he talking about pro hero's and their duties as pro heros" Vlad king says.

"Anyone have any questions for Vlad?" Aizawa says as Mineta raises his hand.

Oh god what does that dick head grape want?

"Ugghhh" Aizawa groans as Vlad kind looks over at him.

"Yes Mineta?" Vlad says as everyone else sighs already annoyed.

"Do you get a lot of honeys being a pro hero?" Mineta asks causing everyone to groan.

"Sir does this question really need anwsering?" Iida says annoyed.

"I wouldn't know since I'm gay and married" Aizawa says causing me to stifle a laugh.

"Well that's enough of that subject" Vlad says as the class laughs and Mineta looks confused.

"Can anyone anwser this question?" Vlad says as my attention drifts to Denki again.

I need to make things right with him. I love him after all, even if he only sees me as a friend.

"Do you know the anwser?" Vlad says to someone but my attention still isnt on him.

I love him I really do.

"Anyone know the anwser? Anyone at all?" Vlad repeats.

"This class doesn't exactly like your class so this is understandable" Aizawa says causing laughter to fill the room as I still look over at Denki.

His laugh is so cute

"I can't help that Monoma is a psychopath and hates your class" Vlad says as the class erupts with laughter.

"But seriously does anyone know the anwser?" Vlad repeats.

His eyes are still puffy and red. He's cried so much over me this week. I'm an awful person. I need to apologize....

"Denki I really wanted to say-" I try to whisper to Denki but he doesn't hear.

Vlad king finishes writing something on the board and looks at me.

"Shinso can you anwser the question?" Vlad king says looking over at me.

Dammit

"Um yes" I say reading the question on the board over again.

"Come up here and explain please" Vlad king says as I get up.

I look back at Denki and he looks worried but then looks away.

Damn my big mouth. I need to apologize.

"I don't know if that's a good idea-" Aizawa says trying to protect me.

"What are you so afraid of Eraser?" Vlad says as Aizawa looks down.

Vlad King why are you doing this to me today, it's a short day just leave me alone.

"Ah okay" I say making my way to the front so Aizawa doesn't have to explain.

"So when did hero's start appearing and how do they get paied?" Vlad asks as I look through the class finding Denki's yellow eyes and looking away.

"Heroes started appear- appearing when the phenomenon occur- occurred and the general populace acquired Quirks. Depending on their performance, heroes have the potential to receive government pay, along with fam- fame and glor- glory." I say stuttering as I lock eyes with Denki again as Roses seemingly pour out of my mouth, ripping my throat apart.

Oh fuck......