Daydreamers, A Poem✔️

Chapter 26

What do you say to the people you love, but hurt?

I am staring at my reflection in Ceramics class,

With a frustrated expression.

I haven't been able to make a mug all month.

My body and mind can't find the right zone.

The bell rings, and it's my lunch period.

I think my teacher won't mind if I eat here.

I've been avoiding the cafeteria at all costs.

I clean up my station and tools,

Making sure to help with the entire room.

She doesn't bat an eye when I sit down to eat.

In between bites of baby carrots and spicy chips, I wander.

A simple apology won't work,

A exaggerated demonstration of love wont either,

I rub my temples at the growing headache.

This feeling of powerlessness a unwelcome state.  

I pull out my phone and— 

Text what is in my heart. 

I don't edit or reread it. 

I just hit send.  

I am a coward.

I was afraid, and—

I valued the opinion of others.

I can't promise absolute perfection.

My stupid words and actions—

Were dipped in ignorance and fear.

If either of you ever decides to forgive me,

I want to tell you I am trying.

I am working on bettering myself and—

Discarding the judgments of others.

I wish you both the best.

Love forever yours, a daydreamer.