Attraction {in editing}

Chapter 9

I walked to the bookstore and sat there. Though it was way past the time it closed, I sat on the roughly textured road and waited.

I waited for nothing in particular. Just to waste time and kill the hours. A part of me wanted Beau to somehow randomly show up as if nothing had happened, but in my heart I knew he wouldn't be there.

It killed me. It absolutely killed me.

I couldn't process anything that ran through my head. When Beau left. The gang. James worrying sick about me. Nothing even made sense anymore everything was taking a turn for the worst and I didn't know what to do with myself.

After letting the silence of the world consume me whole, my phone rang.

It was James. I quickly answered it.

"Hello?"

"Victoria where are you?"

"Sitting in the road contemplating life."

I heard a heavy sigh before he began speaking in a low voice

"Please come home it's late and dangerous outside."

"I don't know."

"Or I'll come pick you up. Please just come home okay."

"James I'm really upset. I'm really hurt."

I sat there and cried. I scratched at my face and arms, inevitably trying to tear myself apart. I felt all hell break loose in me. Then James pulled up in front of me and lowered the window.

"Need a ride?" he smiled lightly as I walked to the car and closed the door.

"I'm hurt."

"I know."

He stroked my back and kissed my forehead as we drove home.

Four blocks back home, I found a note on the porch step.

Isn't it cliche writing letters? This must make me really cliche. So hopefully you're reading this and you didn't burn this or forget about it because you need to know that I'm not safe to be around anymore. And I just hope you know I love you. I like your friend too, I know he must hate me, I don't blame him. I've got a terrible attitude and I don't make you feel safe the way you should feel. I'm really sorry for that. I'm completely in love with you Victoria Williams. But I hurt you and I don't think it's okay for you to be around me. James will take care of you. I need to stay away from you from now on. Its better this way. Do me a favor and fall in love again, with someone who's always nice to you and takes care of you, okay? I don't deserve someone like you. I'll miss your hugs.

Beau x