Ruling the Undefined Feelings (COMPLETED)

Chapter EIGHT

Chapter EIGHT

Falling Deeply

Hindi ko alam kung paano namin nalagpasan at nasagot ang mga tanong ng bawat reporters sa amin. Ngayon ko lang na realize that it's not really easy being in the shoe of the media's subject. All I thought it's not, but it really is. Yung ikaw ang pagtutuunan ng pansin ng lahat. Nakakainis isipin. The press conference ended pero hindi pa rin maalis sa isipan ko ang ipinalabas at sinabi ni Ivan sa harap ng media. It's all fresh!

"Yes, what you've all heard about my relationship with Ms. Chavez is all true. Where already engaged." Ivan answered Lexin's question ng hindi ko ito sinagot.

"Woaah... so when will be the wedding date Mr. Ramirez?" another reporter asked.

"We will announce it soon." he said while holding my hands. I felt different sensations and electrifying feeling that travels through my veins. What's with this feeling?

I don't even want to admit in myself that I'm already into him. I'm not! But what's this feeling I've been feeling off? I'm already gotten confused.

I set aside that feeling. Maybe I can't remember it anymore when I can't see him.

"Ate, I'm on my way home." I informed Ate Dien when I called her after the press conference. I already told her about my deal with Ivan, like me she doesn't like it also but we don't have any choice. It's already finished.

"Okay Cath. By the way where's Ivan now? Alam ba niyang umuwi ka na?" Ate asked. Napaisip ako, he doesn't know about my decisions. I don't bother to inform him dahil ayaw kong may pumigil sa akin. It's not as if he don't let me. I just assumed.

"Uhmm. Nasa penthouse niya siguro ate. Pagkatapos ng prescon hinatid niya lang ako sa room ko, he didn't say anything. I don't also want to inform him any of my decisions. Kaya hindi niya alam." I said.

"Oh, why you wouldn't inform him baka isipin 'nun na tinakasan mo siya." she said laughing.

"It's as if I'm important to him ate. Hindi naman."

"You know, why would he protrude to everyone that your already engaged when he doesn't have any feelings to you." Dienn voice it out.

"Ate, his just trying to protect me, our dignity from everyone." I don't want to assumed but there's a part of me wanted to believe ate Dienn.

Stop it self! Your just paranoid. You can't fall into him! He doesn't have any special feelings for you.

"I don't think it's all just protecting both of your dignity. You know Cath, guys usually start to act like that, like they cared for you and some other things that can makes a woman falls them deeply." dagdag pa nito.

"Dienn naman, wag ka na ngang mag overthink diyan baka maya-maya maniwala pa ako diyan." I teased.

"Tell me honestly Cath, do you have any hidden feelings for him?" Dien asked.

"Maya na natin yan pag-usapan pagdating ko diyan." I diverted the topic.

"Be sure. You'd tell me honestly Cath. Bye the way, ipapasundo nalang kita sa driver namin dito to make sure that your safe."

"Fine Ate. Thanks a lot, Bye." I answered and ended up.

When I arrived at the terminal I saw a familiar Ford Ranger, I already know that it's ate Dien's car. I come closer and realized that as usual si Manong Jude pa rin ang driver nito.

"Hi Manong!" nakangiti kong bati sa kanya ng nakalapit na ako.

"Good day ma'am, pumasok kana. Ako na ang bahala diyan sa bagahe mo." as usual, he offered politely and pointed out my baggage.

"Sige Manong ahh, salamat." I responded before going to the front seat of the car.

Tahimik lang ako buong biyahe. Marami akong gustong itanong sana kay Mang Jude kaso my mind is full of different thoughts. Stupid fucking thoughts! 'What if Ivan will know that I went home already and without saying any farewell words to him? Why can't I lose him in my mind? Bakit ba all the way siya parin ang pumapasok sa isipan ko? Am I insane?'

In the middle of thinking hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako sa buong biyahe. Kuya Jude just walked me up ng nakarating na kami sa bahay. He then opened the door for me, tsaka ako bumaba. I went inside, naabotan ko si baby Psy na naglalaro sa may sala. A wide smile envisage on his cute face when she saw me. He then run towards me, I widely open my arms to gave her a warm hug.

"Tita Cath! I really miss you so much!" she said with a different accent on his tone.

"I miss you more baby, Where's your mommy?" I asked

"She's on the kitchen po Tita." she answered sabay turo sa dinette nila.

"Okay baby, I'll go to Ate Dien first. Just stay here."

"Fine Tita." she smiled and go back to her marionettes.

I went to the kitchen and found Ate Dienn cooking something. She stared me with her  query eyes when I entered. Before I could say something, she started her random questions. I answered every questions she voice out and I explained everything to her.

After expressing my feelings and emotions to Ate. I felt relieve. But unlike the old times it's in different way. Even if I don't want to think and feel it but still I can't deny that I'm falling into him deeply.