Ruling the Undefined Feelings (COMPLETED)

Chapter SEVENTEEN

Chapter SEVENTEEN

Interview

Three months passed after that hurtful thing happens in my life ay wala na rin akong balita kay Ivan. Mabuti na rin iyon para makapag move on na rin ako ng tuluyan.

"Cath, pinatawag ka ng manager natin." salubong ni Jennie ng pumasok ako sa opisina namin pagkatapos kung mag-interview sa isang issue na naka-assign sa akin.

"Bakit daw?" I tried to asked her kahit na alam kung wala itong ideya kung bakit ako pinatawag.

"Hindi ko rin alam." sambit nito habang inaasikaso ang mga papel sa kaniyang lamesa.

"Sige, I'll just put my things on my table then I will go to his office." I said as I walked on my way to my table and place my everything. After that I immediately went to our managers office. While walking a memory flashed on my mind, the scene on Ivan's office that I witnessed. Oh my God, stop thinking of him self! Masasaktan ka lang niyan eh. Pilit kung inaalo ang sarili ko.

When I arrived, I knock at the door first.

"Come in." I immediatly push the door as I heard my managers words, informing me to come inside.

"Good afternoon sir, pinatawag mo raw ako." marahan kung wika habang papalapit sa kanyang lamesa. Agad naman niya akong pinaupo.

"Ah yes, it's about the issue that I give you as an assignment. Are you done with it?" tanong nito sa akin.

"Actually, bago ko pa lang natapos sir." sagot ko.

"Okay good dahil my bago rin akong assignment sayo, iyong issue sa Martiano and Ramirez shipping lines Corporation."

"What?" I screamed out. Sa dinami-dami pa namang issue na pwedeng ma-assign sa akin iyong related pa kay Ivan. What's in the world? Pilit akong umiwas at lumayo sa kanya pero parang ayaw yata kumampi ng tadhana sa akin eh. Ano ba naman yan, napaka unfair.

"Bakit? What'r wrong?" takang tanong ng manager ko. Halatang naguguluhan din siya sa naging reaksiyon.

"Huh, ah... wala po sir... kasi may naalala lang ako eh." I lied. I have no choice dahil hindi ko rin pwedeng tanggihan ang manager namin dahil lang sa personal kung issue. Baka maya-maya mawalan pa ako ng trabaho.

"What do you want me to do sir?" I asked.

"You have to get both sides of Miss Alyssa Martiano and Mr. Ivan Ramirez, kung bakit nila tinanggihan ang decision ng kanilang parents na ipakasal sila."

"Po? Ikakasal si Ivan... ah.. I mean Mr. Ramirez kay Miss Martiano?" I clearly asked. Tama ba talaga ang narinig ko? Well if its true then good for them who cares!

"Yes, most of the nitizens says that its an arraggement thing between the two families. You know business thing. Its the top issue in the showbiz by now." he explained.

"Okay po sis." tanging nasabi ko na lang.

Lumabas ako sa opisina ng manager namin na halo-halo ang laman ng isipan. Kung ikakasal si Ivan at Alyssa pero tinanggihan nila itong dalawa, ano naman kaya ang dahilan ni Ivan? I have seen Alyssa Martiano for how many times in the magazines and some press conference that we've hosted, she's beautiful and looks kind yet amiable, bakit kaya di siya pumayag na magpakasal rito.

'Is it because of that bitch who kissed him on his office? Maybe she's the reason.'

But if my speculations weren't true and that girl is Thia, hindi ako maniniwala na siya nga ang dahilan dahil simula't sapul pa lang walang gusto si Ivan sa kanya.

I choose to get Alyssa's side first before going on into Ivan's pad dahil hindi pa ako handang harapin siya.

Based on Alyssa's statement she said that she doesn't want to settle into marriage dahil sa career niya at ayaw niyang pangunahan ng parents niya ang kanyang damdamin.

"If I would get married I should be the one to choose my lifetime partner." one of her statement on the interview I gather.

"This is my last question Miss Martiano. Do you have any feelings for Ivan Ramirez?" I let out my last question casually.

"Well, his a nice man, every girls dream and his almost perfect but I don't like him to be my husband, I just treated him as my friend and a business partner, nothing more nothing less."

"Oh okay, thank you for giving us some time to have your statement Miss Martiano." I ended the interview.

After I get Alyssa's statements, hindi man ako handang harapin si Ivan pero pinilit ko ang sarili ko dahil career ko ang nakasalalay nito. Hindi ako dapat magpaapekto. Everything is set up in the conference room of their building kung saan gaganapin ang interview. I brought Lexin and some of our staffs to help me.

"Cath, paparating na si Mr. Ramirez." Lexin declared as minutes passed by. Bigla akong kinabahan.

"Shall we start the interview Miss Chavez?" a voice from behind echoed. There he is!

"Yeah, we can." I tried to act like a professional one and pretend to everybody that I'm not affected on his presence either his existence in front of me. He sat on the chair where the main camera is facing. I tried to smile genuinely as I start.

"Mr. Ramirez is it true that you refuse to get married to Alyssa Martiano?" I asked my first question.

"Yes, it is." he answered shortly. Hindi agad nagproseso sa aking isipan ang isusunod ko pang mga tanong dahil sa tingin na ipinukol ni sa akin.

"Why is it so?" pagpapatuloy ko ng nakitang tumaas ang kanyang kikay dahil bigla nalang akong natahimik ng ilang segundo, para yata akong na mental block!

"I can't marry a girl whom I don't love. I don't want people to think that I just marry her for the sake of our families business. If I would get married, that girl should be the love of my life." makahulugan niyang sagot. Gustohin ko mang itanong kung sino ang babaeng iyon or my girlfriend ba siya pero diko nagawa dahil pinangunahan na ako ng kaba. Hindi ko nga man lang kayang tumingin sa kanya ng ilang segundo. Bawat tinging ipinukol niya sa akin hindi ko kayang suklian, hindi ko alam kung ba't naiilang talaga ako pag kaharap ko na siya, kung nakakamatay nga lang ang pagtingin niya sa akin malamang kanina na sana ako pinaglalamayan dito eh.

Hindi ko alam kung paano natapos ang interview na iyon. Sa wakas ay nakahinga na rin ako ng maluwag. Alaw kung galit si Ivan sa mga reporter na katulad ko pero bakit kaya pinaunlakan niya ang interview na iyon? Maybe just to cleared his name. After the interview we immediatly went out of their building, I let out a long sigh before finally drove out and go back to our studio.

"How's the interview?" tanong ni Jennie ng nakapasok ako sa opisina at umupo. Until now she doesn't know that Ivan and I had broke up already.

"Okay naman." tanging sagot ko sa tanong niya.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes." I lied.

Hanggang kailan ko pa kaya malimutan at mawala itong nararamdaman ko para kay Ivan. Kahit anong pilit ko sa sarili na hindi na dapat ko pa nararamdaman ito pero pilit ring tinatakwil ng puso ko. How could I unlove him?

To be continued...