Find The Light ✯ Loki Odinson

chapter twenty seven

7 days later-

Loki had been in the healers room ever since the midgardians came to get you, and you remember it so vividly.

Thinking about it every night, the man was right, the boss, you had signed a contract, you truly belonged to the shield, you signed your life away.

Ever since the accident in your school, the firemen found you in the flames, untouched- and instantly they knew you were different, they contacted the Shield to come and collect you, and that day you signed the contract, that you belong to them, because in that moment you felt like a monster and you were a monster.

Loki had gotten better, the bruises have healed and his wounds were okay, but a thick bandage was still wrapped around his torso, you had insisted to see him, but you were told by a healer that he didn't want to talk- to you especially, it had smashed your heart, into sadness and guilt.

You done this to him, you should of left with the Shield and Loki would of never got hurt, no one could of gotten hurt, or killed, innocent people died because of you, because you're a monster..

The sky was black and the wind was howling, the rain was speeding down from the grey clouds as thunder roared from above.

You, you sat in your bed your knees to your chest as the covers laid over you, you were wide awake, you couldn't sleep, not that knowing Loki was not alright, with you..

Guilt was practically dripping from you, you were desperately annoyed with yourself, but you had to see him, to apologize over and over again.

You were annoyed at yourself so much that you felt tears begin to roll down your cheeks, since you've been here you made Loki's life hell.

A loud crash of thunder cracked across the sky, making you jump, you sighed hugging yourself tighter.
Next thing you knew was that your bare feet were hitting against the cold wet ground as you ran through the palace halls, the open areas were the rain came down made your hair soaked, but you didn't care..
You couldn't sleep with the heavy guilt that laid on your chest.

Another crack of lightning flickered on the sky and soon after a load roar of thunder, you sniffed in your tears, and wiped your eyes running to the healers, everyone was asleep at this time, so no maid could stop you, stop you from seeing him.

The guards that were on night duty only looked at you as you sprinted passed, being careful not to slip, some of them leaned forward from their still positions to see where you went off to.

You were now at the healing room, soaked by the freezing cold rain that made you shiver and a layer of your skin numb, but it was completely off your mind, as you stepped into the dry room, it was warm, not a breeze of wind came your way and it almost dried you slightly as you walked through the rows of empty beds.

The beds were made neatly, a thin white layer silk sheet laying on the top, small candles laid next to the bed, in wooden small tables, this is where you were with Loki.. just a few months ago, that magical night made you dream slightly as you walked.

The warm heat from the candles and the room itself made you warmer, the numbness going away from your body, your tired eyes blinked trying to focus as you could see a tall figure just a few meters away from you.

You rubbed the slight rain water out from your eyes and looked again, it was Loki, his back was towards you as he stood on the balcony, he looked better already.

The breath was held as you stared at him from behind, walking closer as you saw his dark now wet hair, the ends up it curling upwards slightly from the rain, he stood outside, looking over Asgard.

Another spike of lightning flickered on the sky, you swallowed dryly, and stopped, just a few feet away from the God.

He hesitated, "Why did you come?"

"To see you."

Loki slowly turned around, a strained tear sat in his eyes, as he forced it not to roll down his cheek, he breathed it shakily.

"I don't want you here." He clamped his jaw shut, tightening it painfully, as he looked you in the eyes, walking back inside.

You were disappointed in yourself that you had done this to him, you lowered your head with tears of guilt and shame.
"I know- it's just i miss you and i'm sorry, i'm so sorr"

Loki interrupted, stepped a step closer to you, "I don't want you here."

Here. In Asgard..

"I- you don't want me here?" you stuttered in your words, worrying if you heard him correctly, you began to fiddle with your trembling fingers.

He stepped closer.

"N-No." He spat, his eyes locked on you, as yours lowered down to the ground.

Your heart smashed into a million pieces, your body went numb, and it wasn't because of the cold, your fingers trembled more as they gripped onto each other for comfort.

"I don't need you- i don't want you anymore. Do you understand?" He spoke clearly with hesitation, he stood up straighter, as straight as he could, he was walking to you, and he was so close now that he wiped your tears with his finger tips.

"w-what?"

"I don't want you anymore. You've- you've caused enough trouble, Y/n." He looked down at you, hesitantly, he then leaned in to your shocked body and kissed your forehead, squeezing his tired eyes shut as he kissed you.

You were frozen, shocked, you didn't know how to feel.

"Leave." Loki nearly chocked on his words, he stepped away watching you carefully, trying to be as harsh as he could, and it was working..

You stumbled backwards, your throat was dry and tears poured down your cheeks, the rain tapped heavily against the roof as lighting struck across the sky.

"i-" you couldn't speak, you were so chocked up on your tears that you couldn't form any words at all.

Thundered roared as your wet, tired, eyes flickered around Loki, getting the last look at him...

Dark- black hair, the ends curled upwards as rain still gripped onto the floor, his smooth clear skin. His neat eyebrows, and soft eyes that had held back tears in, the green in his eyes that flickered from the candlelight.
His loose green clothing, his tall height, that was so much taller than your own.

You held back a sob as you backed away from him, gritting your teeth as you turned on your heel and ran.

The flames that burrowed in your fists from the emotions that you felt all at once were immediately extinguished by the heavy rain falling onto you as you made your way outside of the palace..