dear beomgyu,
that new year, i cried myself to sleep again. it was painful and heartbreaking beomgyu. i would understand it if you were already sleeping, but you saw my messages and ignored me. i felt so pathetic. i felt so useless and pitiful. i felt so disappointed with myself.
morning came and i woke up to seeing a lot of messages from you. i literally got up so fast while holding my cellphone.
<- beomgyu
—————Thursday, January 1, 2015—————
beomgyu
sorry for being
out of reach.
i had my reasons.
i wanted to avoid
you. i don't know.
it felt different. and
i can't explain it. | 5:14am
i don't want us
to fight again.
that's why i chose
to be distant.
it's my fault. | 5:16am
i miss you...
a lot.
i don't know how
to talk to you.
i was too shy to
make up for you.
i was stupid.
i had a lot of excuses.
i hated myself
for it. | 5:23am
i thought i was never
good for you. | 5:24am
i wasn't enough.
i hated myself
for making you
sad and hurt.
i'm sorry.
i missed you, vanna.
we're still friends,
right? | 5:26am
YOU ARE READING
dear beomgyu,
Fanfictionhello, beomgyu. how are you doing? do you still remember me? it's me. i'm still waiting for you. i'm still holding on to your promise. [ 𝚃𝚇𝚃 𝙵𝙰𝙽𝙵𝙸𝙲𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽 ]
