dear beomgyu,

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dear beomgyu,

the remaining days of 2013 were blurry to me. i got into the dance club i auditioned in together with daniel and you told me you are pursuing your talent in music. we both supported each other and i'm happy that we were doing what we both liked.

unlike before, our chats were minimized to just "hello, goodmorning", "how are you", "how's your day" and such. i was always the one who initiated the conversation but you always reply late. i get that you were busy in school and at home.

i diverted my time into practicing and drawing. daniel would always suggest that we do a dance cover and post it on social media but i was too shy. he was always the one who boosted up my confidence in dancing.

we posted our covers on youtube and a lot of our schoolmates liked them. we were just elementary kids but they said we really dance well. even our instructor recognizes our talent and i was so happy.

i told you how happy i was that i was recognized by our dance instructor but you just replied with, "wow, good for you." and that was the end of our conversation that day. i was sad because you never hyped me so much like before. then i realized, maybe you were just busy.

i always check your social media but you never update your twitter and facebook. those were the apps that i told you to download because i wss using it. maybe, you really are busy.

christmas came and all i received from you is a "merry christmas" greeting and that you were sorry for being too busy and said you were going to make up for me. and the same went for new year.

yes, i know you were busy. but why does it feel like you are slowly becoming out of reach?