dear beomgyu,

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dear beomgyu,

months turned to years. i never found out the reason why you suddenly became out of reach.

i hated you, beomgyu. i was mad. i wanted to resent you. i wanted to forget you. but i know i can't.

i tried to avoid every possible reasons to remember you. i tried to forget everything related to you.

i never went back to the dance studio again, even when my mother wanted me to continue the summer dance classes. i never went to the park again. i kept ryan and all the things you gave me on a box and hid it under my bed. i never listened to the songs you recommended to me. i kept all my hangul books. i took away my guitar.

i stopped dancing... i hated it. because every time i dance, i always remember you. everything from the summer dance class came running into my memories.

daniel would always ask me why do i not make covers anymore, why do i not dance with him anymore. i couldn't tell him my reasons— it might be just shallow but you don't know how much you've hurt my feelings.

i tried to forget everything, beomgyu. i tried to erase you on my mind.

but everytime i do, i always fail.

you wanna know why?

because you are in my heart. i don't know how long have you been there, or how you've been there. i just know that you'll always be in my heart...

even though you left me.