I got this idea, by listening to the song Goodbye by NF.
Chris x Alex (DH)
!Theres talk about who died in DarkHarvest, so if you don't want to know who dies, don't read.
All I want is for him to be safe, is it so hard to ask? Those fucking freaks from the Order won't stop until both of us are dead. We are the only ones left, besides Heather. Well, I didn't even know she was still alive, until recently from the newest update to the channel. Yet, how long will that even last?
Everyone else we knew, is dead. Greg, Jessie, and both of our parents. I can still remember seeing my fathers and mothers dead bodies. It haunts me to this day, and I never was the same. Alex healed a bit, but he still has a short temper. I could never blame him, I'm not any better with my own.
There's days like these, that I feel guilty for bringing Alex into this mess. Only if I didn't tell him what was happening to me, he would've still been living a normal life. I hate that I brought the one I loved, into something that almost killed him so many times.
The Order has tried, and they won't stop. We almost died to their blade once, and I don't want that ever happening to Alex again. He deserves a better life, without having to live in fear every day of his life. Instead, he could go and start a life somewhere. Maybe even start a family with someone.
I can still remember my dreams of living with him until we grew old together. It was funny how I felt like a girl, having their first crush whenever I was near him. I just wanted to tell him, yet it's to late know. It will be better if he forgets me.
The only way for him to be safe, is if I leave his life completely. Then, he will be free to do whatever he wants. The less he remembers about me, the better it will be for the two of us. We can both go our separate ways, one just a bit harder then the other.
I'll try to remember the good days we had, before shit hit the fan. When he would come over to my house, and we would play video games late into the night. Laying on my bed, and spilling my thoughts and feelings to him. He was always a good listener, knowing when to say something at the right time.
A smile comes to my face, as I remember the simpler days. Then the smile starts to fade, as I notice what I'm about to do. I open the door in front of me, silently as I see a sleeping body in the bed. I watch my steps, to make sure none of the floor boards make any noise.
Once I reach the bed, I pull out a letter that was in my pocket. Alex starts to move around a bit, as I freeze in my spot. He settles down after a few minutes, as I let out a soft sigh. My hand starts to hover over his sleeping form, to scared to actually touch him.
"I hope you can forgive me, for what I'm about to do Alex. I'm tired of bringing you deeper in this mess, so I'm going to end it once and for all." I stop speaking, as tears start to roll down my face. It takes all of my will to not break down on the spot.
"I'm doing this for the both of us Alex. They wanted me in the first place, so I'm going to give myself them. They can do whatever they want with me, as long as your safe." My eyes start to get blurry, so I take off my glasses to wipe my tears away.
"I'll sacrifice myself, for you my love." I put my glasses back on, as I take one last glance at his sleeping body. My feet pull me out of the room, as I head to the front door, to keep the one I love safe.
As the door closes, Alex finally lets out a soft whimper. He was awake for Chris's speech, he was just to scared to actually say something. "I love you to Chris." He whispers, as he sits up in his bed. His mind is know trying to choose what he should do. Go after him before something happens, or stay here as Chris goes out there and dies. His feelings are mixed, yet he nows which one he must pick..
I actually started tearing up while writing this. So, which path should Alex pick? That's for you guys to choose....... and me to write.....
