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I have three Oneshots already halfway written, but instead of finishing them, I decide to make a whole new one.
Idk why my mind does this to me.
Song: Goodnight by the fabulous and amazing Wilbur Soot. : )
Chris x Alex (DH)
You talk about habits
Just the smallest of things that I did, always seemed to worry you. Was it my problems and habits, that drew you away in the end? Or was it something else hidden deeper, that just won't come to mind in my darkened state. That has only gotten worse, with each passing day without you by my side.
Boy, I can name a few
Maybe it was the tone of voice I used whenever you were near. I never meant to raise it so much, but the stress just would get to me in the end. Filling my mind with to many "what if's", turning my mind against myself. Which was a toxic thing at the time, but soon it just consumed me.
But I bloody don't understand it
The one thing that I can't understand is, why did you stay with me for so long? They went after me in the beginning, so you could've easily have left and lived off your life normally. So, why did you risk everything? It doesn't make any sense to me. Maybe it was the thrill, and you just got hooked on it. Or maybe you loved figuring out mysteries, like why was all of this happening to us of all people? Also, know that we are in this mess, how do we get out of it? That's a good question right there.
Is it chemical reactions or am I trained into?
There's always been a little whisper that seems to circle throughout my brain. Telling me things that I hope are false, but might just be made up of the reality that we live in. I just can't stand the thought of standing here forever, thinking about the dark places inside of my mind. Making me more hollow each second, until I'm just a husk of who I once was.
When you die
Alex....
When it's time
I hope wherever you are.
When you die
You know how much you mean to me.
Who will hold your hand, to that goodnight?
Please don't give up.
I hope you're alright
I hope you're alright
I hope you're alright
I hope you're alright
I hope you're alright....
Please don't die on me Alex. I don't think I'll be able to live, if something happened to you....
Ignore me finishing this at my friends house, with only two hours of sleep in my system. So if you see mistakes or it doesn't make sense somewhere. I'm srry :/.
