Im sorry if it's not as good, as my other Onehots. I'm not even sure, where I was going with this.... I also wrote this awhile ago. :/
Jeff
I wonder if I could fall of the face of this world, and nobody would notice. Like, it's not like people seem like they care anymore these days. Well, sometimes you find those rare people that care, and you either lie to them, or push them away from you.
I've always wanted to be other people's friend, yet my own fear gets in the way. Like, what would happen if I hurt them on accident? What if, I'm not there when they need me, and then they have to suffer by themselves?
That's why I try not to make friends, cause I don't want to see the future. How long will it even last? It might just be a short term thing, and those HuRt.
I want someone that I can tell stuff to, yet be goofy with them. Have bad days, yet also good days with them. Knowing that we have each other backs, for a long time.
That's what Jessa was, until she disappeared. With her, my whole will to live went with her. It hurts, when you loved someone so much, only for them to leave you. It's like, someone's slowly trying to saw off your skin. Yet, you are awake to feel all of the pain. Then once they have their fun with the saw, they move onto more slow things.
Yet, it wants to take its sweet time with the pain. It might last a few months, to years. Maybe, I want to be free of this pain, not having the bare it anymore. I'm tired of having to deal with it, I just want it to end....
