5 Seconds of Summer Imagines

i'm sorry // l.h.

It's our six month anniversary today, Luke wanted to stay in tonight but I persuaded him to go out to our favourite restaurant in the city.

While I got ready I got a text from Luke saying we needed to talk immediatly.
I dropped my lipstick and took a deep breath. My heart started beating faster as I replied to his text.

'Come over'

10 minutes passed and I started to get nervous. I walked up and down in my room, imagining the worst things.

'Is he gonna break up with me?' I thought to myself 'Have I done something wrong?'

Another 10 minutes passed before someone knocked on my door. "Yeah?!" I exclaimed.

The door opened ajar and Lukes head popped up. "Hey beautiful." he said and entered the room. He looked terrible, really tired and only now I realized he lost a lot of weight.

He came to me and hugged me tight. We stood like this for a few minutes without saying a word. He burried his head into my neck and I felt his tears running down my body.

I immediatly broke the hug and looked him in the eyes, tears were streaming down his cheeks. "Luke what the hell is going on?" I asked cupping his face.

"(Y/N) I- i need to tell you something I-" he stopped talking and shook his head. "You can tell me anything you know that Luke." I said worried, tears building up.

I hated seeing him hurt, I couldn't handle that. "You know that I love you right? You know that you mean everything to me right (Y/N)?" He hopefully looked at me and I furrowed my brows. What was he trying to tell me?

"Of course Luke. Of course I know that. Now please tell me whats going on." I begged. "I- I'm sick." He barely wispered.

Sick? What does he mean?

"S-sick?" I repeated "Yeah its uh its cancer. I never told you about this because I didn't want to worry you. This is going on for month now. Thats why I canceled so many of our dates. Doc appointements and stuff you know. But nothing is working..-"

I cut him off, "What the fuck do you mean nothing is working? WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN? AND ANOTHER THING LUKE! WHY THE FUCK DIDNT YOU TELL ME YOURE SICK? NOT WORRYING ME IS NOT A REASON LUKE WHAT WHERE YOU THINKING?" I couldn't help but yell and the tears I tried to hold back were now streaming down my face.

He tried to reach out for me but I pushed him away, turning around so I wouldn't have look at him anymore. "(Y/N) I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you"

"Then why are you telling me now huh?" As soon as I said these words I regretted them. I knew what he was gonna say next, I bit my lip to keep my chin from trembling too much.

"I don't know how much time I've got left..I'm - I'm gonna die (Y/N), soon." he wispered. My heart broke into a million pieces. I turned around to face him, it broke my heart even more when I saw him, Luke, the love of my life, standing right in front of me crying, looking like he's gonna break down any second.

I slung my arms around his torso, burrying my head into his chest. "Please don't leave me alone in this fucked up world Luke. Please keep fighting." I sobbed.

"I will always be with you (Y/N). Always." He said holding me tight.

"I love you," I sobbed.

***

I woke up this morning feeling like hell. In the last two weeks I spent almost everyday with Luke. His condition got worse day by day. Yesterday I couldn't visit him wich sucked ass but I'm definitely gonna see him today. I walked downstairs to meet my mom in the kitchen. She held a letter in her hand which I realized was addressed to me.

"(Y/N) you're up. Finally. There are some news." She said looking down to her feet.

No. These are not bad news. Everything is fine!

"What is going on?" I asked. No answer. "Mom! What is going on? Is it Luke? Is he okay?" I panicked, he had to be fine!

"Liz dropped by earlier today, she told me to give you this." she handed me the letter she held in her hands.

I immediatly recognized the handwriting as Luke's. Startled I stared at the letter. "Was that all?" I asked, my voice cracking."No sweetie..." there was a little pause before she continued "Luke he...he passed away last night. I'm so sorry." I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.

"(Y/N) -" my mom started but I ran away out of the door. I just ran. I didn't really know where I was going until I was there. The place Luke and I had our first kiss. The place where he first told me he loved me. It was our place.

I took a few deep breaths before I let out a loud scream. I screamed til my lungs gave up and I fell onto the ground. I stared at the letter for minutes before ripping it open.

"My dear (Y/N),
I don't know why I am even writing this, because I really hope that this letter never gets to you, because if it does that means that I wasn't strong enough to fight my cancer. It also means I never had time to show you how much I really do love you.
You have shown me what it feels like to be loved. Everytime we touched, everytime we kissed I could feel it. You are and always will be the love if my life. I literally would be nothing without you. You are my girlfriend and my best friend. You are the most funny, radiant, sarcastic and the most beautiful and stunning person I have ever met and I am so damn lucky to have you!
You are the only person I know I could turn to when I needed help, you are the person I looked at when I needed to smile and feel happy again.
You are my whole world. I will always be looking over you to make sure you're safe.
(Y/N) , you were the love of my life and the girl of my dreams. Just because I'm not around anymore does not mean I am not with you. I'll always be there looking over you, keeping you safe.
Whenever you feel lonely, just close your eyes and I'll be there, right by your side.

Love always, Luke

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