Failing to be his beloved (Damian Wayne robin x reader)

Chapter one

——A/this is just introducing the character sorry if it's bad——

"I'm so sorry... " says the doctor. How did this happen I thought she was better. "No no no this can't be happening" you say as you back up into your chair.

3 hours earlier

"You sure your ok for the performance mama" you say with worry "I told you I'm better just remember this performance for the rest of your life after all it's the biggest crowed you've ever seen look" you look out at the crowed your 12 year old self terrified. You look back and say "I'll remember"
" now presenting (y/n) and (m/n) the aerial duo." The show man James says. You walk out there still worried for your mother she's been sick for a while.But realizing you weren't paying attention you walk out and get ready to preform your in the middle of know where yet theirs hundreds of people there your like an hour away from a place called Gotham.
Your father died when you were young he and your little sisters were in a car reck on the way home you were at the hospital with your mom because their was complications with your little sisters birth. Your sisters died as well something about their hearts being underdeveloped.
You start the routine and climb to the top your having so much fun you look over to your mom and see her smiling when...
Suddenly your mom slips and instead of tumbling to the ground she is caught by the neck and a small snap is heard.
The sound that will haunt this little girl for the rest of her life. Her mom then drops out of the silk to the ground.The audience goes silent.
You slide down out of the silks as fast as you can but by the time you get there the ring master and the strong man are there.
The strong man mark holds you back as paramedics rush in you scream and cry "take me with you" and "Mama"
You collapse and mutter to yourself "I thought she was getting better" and "what happened" " is she ok"
An officer comes and takes you with him to the hospital when you get there you sit and wait for the doctor to come out and say what happened.The officer tries to make you laugh making silly faces when his partner isn't watching.Then the doctor comes out.

Present time

"No no no no no, you said she was better" i get quiet "she told me she was better" all he says is "I'm sorry"
A few minutes later the officer comes and takes me back to my and  my moms trailer and tells me to collect my  stuff I can't stay here the circus can't afford me.
I grab my back pack and put a necklace my mother bought me on, and start packing.First I  pack a pair of pajamas then all my outfits which is 3 after that i grab my  7 practice leotards  and stuff them in. I do a double take of the room and find my family scrap book full of pictures I  wrap that in your blanket to keep it safe, And stuff it in my pillow case with a very small pillow.
I walk outside and see the officer talking to a lady and hear" she'll do great in the foster system she'll be adopted in no time."
The one thing my mother always told me is that the system is horrible and she never wants me in it.I can't go into the system and I won't.
I turn and start running Gotham.
Gotham is the closest I will go there.About an hour after sun rise I start getting sleepy.But I won't let myself sleep till I'm in Gotham.I see a large building in the distance."That looks kinda like a house."
I am almost around to the front of the building when I see a boy fall out of the second story I panic what if he's hurt I look up and see another boy staring down looking at him he looks a little older then me he's smirking.
I here the boy who fell and something like ...splashing? I get to the corner and look through and see the boy fully clothed in a swimming pool. He yells " What's wrong with you demon spawn I just wanted to see what the deal is with your room." The other boy jumps down and says "Todd I will push you from a lot higher if you ever do that again my room is not to be contaminated by your presence or anyone else's for that matter except alfreds"
I turn and keep walking considering it's not my business.
Suddenly an alarm goes off I panic and get scared did I set off an alarm I start running till I get to the front of the house. I look behind me to see if anyone saw me .
Nope the cost is clear. I let out a sigh and turn back but freeze.
Inches away from me is a tall man in a suit I startle and turn to run but the two boys from earlier are there.
"What the hell is going on Bruce, who is she"the taller one asks.
I panic and say "اللعنة" (fuck)they all look at me, since the sun is up I'm now 12 and  this looks terrifying consider the man and the boy my age are both glaring at me.
I stop because they all look off guard at my comment the first to react is the boy my age who jumps at me to pin me down. Growing up in the circus though I always was physically fit and liked to play with the animals  and they liked to pounce on me and since sometimes it hurts I learned to dodge.
I slide to the left accidentally tripping the boy he now looks pissed.I didn't mean to dodge it was kinda a reflex but now I feel kinda bad because it looks like he scraped his elbow.I say " oh my god I'm so sorry."I drop my stuff to inspect the elbow and end up being pined and that hurt.
He now asks me "من أنت"(who are you)
I state my name (y/n)(l/n).
I then say and "if you didn't notice I speak English."He says  "who sent you"
"What do you mean who sent me"
He picks me up by my front and slams me back down still pining me "ow  that hur-". He asks in a more rough tone "who sent you"
"Nobody, now how far is Gotham from here"
He flats at me and says "why are you going to Gotham"
I respond with " I don't have anywhere else to go and I won't go into the system "
The boy let's go if your arms and sits on your waist still keeping you pined. You shift in discomfort and wait for him to notice what he's doing
He then asks or well more like demands "give me your back pack"
I reluctantly take off my backpack. He snatches it still keeping me pined and shifts through all my stuff. I ask him to "get off me please" he slowly and reluctantly while still going through my stuff gets up when I feel the tired I have been postponing hit me like a truck as I stand up.I fall back over and everything goes black...