Mini Marais

chapter 11

"Me and Owen broke up and I feel like it's my fault" I respond quietly but avoided making eye contact with him.
"Y/n.. I'm so sorry" He says and holds my hand tighter. "Why do you feel like it's your fault" He asks in a soft voice.
"Cuz some fans came up to Jack and we were there and they asked if me and Owen were dating so I said no and Owen freaked out about it because when they asked that I said he was just a close friend and they asked about you and I said you were just a close friend too and he took it the wrong way. I feel like it's my fault tho if I could just stop being afraid of what people might think I would be able to still be with him right now, but I couldn't even do
that" I say and a few tears fell while I was talking.
"It's not your fault y/n. It's his fault he should've listened to what you had to say and he didn't" Corbyn says softly but I didn't say anything "He didn't deserve you anyways. He never did" He continued. Why does Corbyn have to be so sweet all the time, making me fall for him even more. I looked up from the ground to look at him and stared at his eyes. I couldn't do this right now. It's all too much. I still have feelings for Corbyn but I also do for Owen and this making me more sad than it is happy.
"Can you just take me home. Please" I let go of his hand.
"Yeah" We walked to his car and he drove me home, the ride was awkwardly quiet. He parked in front of the house "Do you want me to go in with you or are you good?" He asks as we walked to the front door together.
"I'd rather just be alone right now" I unlock the door "Thanks tho" I turn to face him. He pulled me into a bear hug out of no where slightly scaring me.
"I'm here if you wanna talk, don't forget that" He says hugging me closer with his arms around my waist and his chin on top of my head.
"I know" He kissed the top of my head and we both pulled away from the hug.
"Feel better and call or text me if you need anything" He says and starts slowly walking away backwards.
"I will, thanks Corbyn" I say and walk inside the house
"Yeah of course. Bye y/n"
"Bye!" He turns around to walk to his car and drives off and I went inside. I looked around and Zach wasn't home, that's a surprise.
I went up to my room and sat on my bed to face the polaroid pictures I had on my wall. Two of them were me with Owen so I reached up to grab them. The first one was us at the beach on our first actual date together.
That day surprised me that day with a cute area set up with fairy lights, blankets, movies, and food. The second was of us at the zoo with a baby panda. Even tho those were recent the memory hurts. Seeing us together hurts. I reached over and grabbed scissors, cutting them in half and threw them in the trash. I couldn't stand seeing the pictures of us being happy when we were together. I started to feel like I was gonna cry so I did what usually helped calm me down whenever I felt like this, I got up to grab my guitar and sat back on my bed. I began to strum the chords to one of my favorite songs and started to quietly sing it.
"I'm a shipwreck waiting for you. You're the rock that stop me going. Anywhere, anywhere
going anywhere, anywhere. You're the storm that took me under. Before I knew it was you
I was already going down, going down I was going down, going down. Anytime that you leave. I find it hard just to breathe I come apart in every way. You never put me back again. Every time you go I come a little undone. Even when it hurts, I'm holding on to your love. Like I'm fixed, fixed, fixed. You got me fixed on you. You can walk away but I could never let go. Don't know how you did it but I'm set in stone. Like I'm fixed, fixed, fixed you got me fixed on you" I stopped when I heard footsteps and looked at the door.
"Y/n you have such a great voice!" Jonah says in shock standing in the door frame.
"We're you standing there the whole time!?" I asked being scared I didn't notice him before. I've never really sang in front of anyone before
"No I was in the studio downstairs and just heard the last parts of the song when I came up here but you sounded amazing! Why haven't you sang in front of anyone before?" He says in awe.
"I get nervous and you know I don't do well with crowds and stuff like that"
"You should post a cover or something I'm sure you'd be able to make a career out of it, you have talent" He suggests
"No being in the spotlight is not my thing"
"Well if you ever wanna do that I'm here to support you, I really think you'd be great"
"Thanks but I don't really want to"