Saved By You (Trilogy) [Completed]

Fifteen

Wish You Pain by Andy Grammer^

"This place is.."

"Trashed. Yeah, I know."

Looking around my apartment, I couldn't say when the last I've been here was. I've been with Jordan for years now, and even though I would sometimes come here and clean up, it seems as though it doesn't help.

I figured it was time to come and move everything out since I was moving in with Jordan again.

It took a while to figure all this out, but I'm glad to be getting rid of this place. I hate it so much from all the memories it brings. I don't like coming here anymore, so that's why it's always in a mess cause I never come here anymore.

Watching Jordan walk around, looking at everything, I couldn't help but smile at her. She walked over to the wall where a hole was present.

"What's this?" She asks.

Sighing, I watch as she looks over at me for a moment. "Um, I think Atlanta punched the wall one night when she came home from drinking. Which of course I'll have to pay for."

We started cleaning up and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was in a mess but it wasn't terrible. There was a few dishes in the sink and some trash everywhere on the floor.

After we were done in the living room and kitchen, we walked into the bedrooms and started cleaning up. When we got to my room, I looked around before taking the pictures down from the walls and placing them in the box I brought.

I stood in front of my dresser and started packing up my clothes. I saw Jordan in the mirror as she was picking up trash then she walked over to the closet.

"No, wait!"

She opened the door and everything fell out of it, including the boxes that were on the top shelf. She looks over at me as I stood there staring at the shit on the floor.

"Sorry."

Nodding, I looked at her then sighed. "It's fine. I knew that the closet was full of shit."

I watched as she looks down at all the stuff before bending down and picking the box up, that was turned over.

Seeing all the envelopes fall out, I quickly walk over and bend over to pick them up.

Before I had the chance to grab one, Jordan grabs my wrists then looks at me. "What's all this?" She picks one up then looks at it.

"Um.."

Those were my letters that I had written Jordan years ago. I've kept them up and away from everyone, including myself so I wouldn't be tempted to read them and break down crying.

Jordan looks at me and I knew I had to finally tell her.

"Those are letters that I wrote you."

She looks back at it for a moment. "Why haven't I ever read them?"

Shrugging, I looked at her as she looked back at me. "Didn't really have a purpose of sending them to you. I just wrote them."

She looks at all the envelopes on the floor. "Are all of them letters to me?"

I nodded. "Yeah."

"How many?"

Staring at the floor where all the letters were, I tried thinking about how many I actually wrote.

"Maybe.. a hundred and eighty two."

Jordan stares at me in complete shock. "What?" She looks back at the envelope. "Alexis.."

"It's fine." I say.

She looks back at me. "Can I read them?"

I chuckled as I nodded. "Sure if you wanna read over a hundred."

Looking back at the envelope then back at me, she leans over and gently kisses me. "I can't wait to read them." She grabs all the letters and places them back in the box.

We both stand up and finish cleaning before we have to leave. I made sure this place was in decent shape before walking out that door and never looking back.

"Are you ready?"

Carrying the last box, I turned to look around once more before looking at Jordan and smiling. "Yeah, I'm ready."

She wraps her arm around me as I walked out the door. I watched as she locked the door then smiled at me as we walked to the car.

Taking a look at the place before getting in, I waited for Jordan as she shut the trunk then got into the driver side.

She grabs my hand and smiles at me before gently kissing it. I smile at her as I lean my head against the headrest as I watch my past slowly fade from the windshield.

-

"Ugh, shut up!" Casey whined as she placed her head in her hands.

Everyone at the table was laughing so hard, I heard Kaylee snort a few times which made me laugh even harder.

"Aunt Casey, it's ok. Everyone has embarrassing moment." She picks up her glass then takes a sip.

I smile over at Casey as she was shaking her head. My eyes land on Jordan, who was sitting next to me, cutting into her food. I couldn't help but smile as I watch her take a bite then her eyes land on mine.

She smiles as she chews then takes a sip of her drink before setting it down. She leans over and gently kisses me and I felt all kinds of shit in the pit of my stomach as I stared at this woman.

Looking around the table, I honestly could say that my life is great. Beyond perfect. Not a lot of people could say that, but not a lot of people have been through what I went through.

It wasn't an easy road to travel down, and a lot of times I wanted to give up. The struggles I went through only made the journey worth it all, because it brought me here.

My journey is far from over. Just because I have what I've always wanted, doesn't mean that I'm going to stop here.

I'm going to keep fighting and keep on going down this journey with Jordan and my family. I have everything need right here, and nothing else matters to me except for the things that I never gave up on.

I never did give up on her because even when everyone else was too blind to see, I saw someone who she always was meant to be. That made me stay even after a million people told me to leave... I stayed."

At one point in our lives, we're going to be hurt by the people who we love. We're going to fight and fight, even when we feel like giving up, but we're not going to give up.

Then we're going to be loved by that person, for many of years, but never take something for granted even when you feel like you deserve more. You never deserve more than what that person gives you, even if that's all that have to give.

After all the hurt is gone, you're going to be saved by them. They're going to save you from your demons and yourself even when you feel like you don't deserve to be saved. They're going to prove you wrong in so many ways, that you're going to cry and beg for their forgiveness for ever hurting them in the past.

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all."

The End

It was a short story but meaningful! I hope you all enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it!

Much lovexx