Twisted Gems

Shining with Success

As I continued the drive to Justin's house i turned on the radio to some Kendrick Lamar and Sza. "Cause maybe tonight that my dreams might let me know all the stars are closer, all the stars are closer.", I sang then just hummed through the rest of it. I wonder why he puts himself through the long ride just to get to school. If that were me I'd just attend somewhere close to here. But as I kept driving, I barely passed any buildings, but hey it's his parents' choice.

The music on the radio continued with Expectations by Lauren Jauregui "Wish I had no expectations, really wish I could get it through your head. With nooo confrontations, really wish we could talk about it instead. All these tears that I cried while I'm turned to the side and your in the same beddd. Wish I had no expectations but I expect, you expect, we expect." This song reminds me of having a crush so much. I want to actually talk to Emmanuel Jordan but he probably doesn't care. I expected him to be this charming and sweet guy but oh no he wasn't.

Now I bet it's probably too late for anyone to like me. That's why I'm thinking of going to the Southeast Institute of History, Science, and Arts so I can get a fresh new start. I've spent too long trying to make friends at this school so what's the point. I bet that Jessica and Gracie won't even let me sit there for long. So much has happened I can't get my thoughts straight.

I started singing a song I wrote when my cousin passed away. "Was i so stupid for thinking this way? Does it make me seem crazy? I can't control my thoughts cause they keep rushing at me. So if I can't steer, or pull the sail on my own boat I've lost track of time because I'm lost in my own mind."

The deadline for my decision is so soon. Even though I love Mrs. Jackson, what teacher gives you that big offer, with barely a week's notice. If I can I'm probably going to ask for an extension. School ends in two months and the next year starts in five. At least I'll finish my 'last' year at this with good grades. Eventually, I should tell my parents but not now.

After an hour of sad songs and being trapped in my thoughts, I finally made it to Justin's house. I'm so glad I have my drivers license so I have some sense of freedom. If someone were to ask me what I learned from being 16, it would be that if you want freedom, you gotta take it. It's better to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission. Look where that's got me. I sent him a text message and just waited in my car until I saw some motion near me. A light then turned on and I got out my car and went closer to the door. 

Eventually the door opened and Justin came out to greet me. "Hey Onya, come in.", he said. I went inside the house and started to admire it for a minute. Wow his family has good taste. I can tell the furniture is comfy and I haven't even sat on it yet. "Hi Justin. How was the rest of your day. Not much could've happen since we just saw each other.", I said back. "Not much had happened like you said. Class was pretty boring but at least one highlight of my day was going to my theatre class. Talking to you was also another highlight of my day." 'Aww that's so sweet'., I thought.

"It would be rude of me for you to come to my house and not offer you anything. What would you like I have cookies, cupcakes, apple juice, soda, biscuits, and crackers." , he asked. I don't want to be greedy and ask for one of everything but that's what my mind is telling me. I got snacks from Mrs. Johnson so I'm covered. "I don't want to sound greedy but can I get a cupcake, cookies and a coke?", I asked. "No problem. I'd rather have you eat these things before my little brother and sister get home.", he continued. "I completely relate to that cause I have two little brothers. I basically have to either eat my food super quick or hide it.", I replied.

"Give me 2 minutes, let me go and get your things.", Justin said as he started to walk towards his kitchen. While he was doing that, I took off my shoes and set my bags off to the side. He really is a smart and sweet human being. I can't believe I had so much prejudice towards him. Normally I don't like when teachers pick my partners but Mr. Peters chose good this time. Then he came around with my food and a smile immediately came on my face.